Lonely Loneliness

HOLY CRAP!

Question:

> Well, we’re here, for what good it may do…

It does do good but unfortunately I only come here when I feel down. But damn I’m terrified of my own life, I keep becoming increasingly bitter and apathetic. I hate it. I’m turning into Darkfalz! When ‘friends’ get together with girls or guys I get so jealous its just not normal then it sets off a mood swing. I HATE who I’m becoming and its hard to fight it. "Little Monster" <r…@localhost.localdomain> wrote in message

news:aa74630183e84184bb378003ece59103@news.teranews.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Mon, 19 Apr 2004 13:15:51 +0100, the world was enlightented by Anon, > unto whom the words are attributed: > > A girl (yes a female!) brought me a present for no occasion too! I don’t > Wish people would do that for me :-/ > > Anyway things seem to be looking up, but still I feel alone. When one part > > of my loneliness seems to be getting better I dwell on the other part > > instead of thinking its better than it was before when you had neither > > parts. > Monsterre > — > Who stole my sig?  Who stole it? > Own up, dammit!!  It was YOU, wasn’t it?

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"Anon" <a…@anon.com> wrote in message

news:4084d6f2$0$411$c3e8da3@news.astraweb.com… > > Well, we’re here, for what good it may do… > It does do good but unfortunately I only come here when I feel down. > But damn I’m terrified of my own life, I keep becoming increasingly bitter > and apathetic. I hate it. I’m turning into Darkfalz! When ‘friends’ get > together with girls or guys I get so jealous its just not normal then it > sets off a mood swing. I HATE who I’m becoming and its hard to fight it.

Yeah I hate people too. I used to get disturbed by it feeling bitter and hoping something bad will happen to most people with girlfriends/ boyfriends or even just people with friends, but now I embrace my hatred towards the human race. I don’t even care what happens to me anymore. It’s cool not caring.

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> Yeah I hate people too. > I used to get disturbed by it feeling bitter and hoping something bad will > happen to most people with girlfriends/ boyfriends or even just people with > friends, but now I embrace my hatred towards the human race. > I don’t even care what happens to me anymore. > It’s cool not caring.

That’s what I don’t wanna turn into. I still don’t hate hate them. I get awful jealous but I can see myself becoming like that. Slowly but surely its gonna happen then I’ll never get a chance to be happy cause I’d be too bitter to find anyone. "Victor" <ura…@urectum.co.uk> wrote in message

news:c62mt7$1bh$1@lust.ihug.co.nz… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> "Anon" <a…@anon.com> wrote in message > news:4084d6f2$0$411$c3e8da3@news.astraweb.com… > > > Well, we’re here, for what good it may do… > > It does do good but unfortunately I only come here when I feel down. > > But damn I’m terrified of my own life, I keep becoming increasingly bitter > > and apathetic. I hate it. I’m turning into Darkfalz! When ‘friends’ get > > together with girls or guys I get so jealous its just not normal then it > > sets off a mood swing. I HATE who I’m becoming and its hard to fight it.

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On Tue, 20 Apr 2004 08:53:09 +0100, the world was enlightented by Anon, unto whom the words are attributed: >> Well, we’re here, for what good it may do… > It does do good but unfortunately I only come here when I feel down. > But damn I’m terrified of my own life, I keep becoming increasingly bitter > and apathetic. I hate it. I’m turning into Darkfalz! When ‘friends’ get > together with girls or guys I get so jealous its just not normal then it > sets off a mood swing. I HATE who I’m becoming and its hard to fight it.

Sounds like you need to get out more – I mean in the day-time, on your own, away from people sense.  Seriously, communing with nature does you a power of good, clears your head.  Go for long walks on your own, not expecting or inviting any contact with anyone, and don’t permit yourself to think about people either.  Take an interest in your surroundings, listen to the birds, see enjoy what you see around you.  Above all, don’t let it become a chore, because that will just create something else for you to become bitter about.  Other thing is, you put "friends" in quote marks, to me that implies you don’t really think of them as friends.   Maybe you’d be better off not associating with them so much?  Spend more time in the company of strangers – after all, they are merely friends you haven’t met yet… Monster — Who stole my sig?  Who stole it? Own up, dammit!!  It was YOU, wasn’t it?

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> Other thing is, you put "friends" in quote > marks, to me that implies you don’t really think of them as friends. > Maybe you’d be better off not associating with them so much

I don’t hang round with anyone when I’m on holiday at all. That’s what drives me crazy nothing to do with anyone. The reason I say ‘friends’ is that they’re ‘fun’ friends. You do things with them not talk to them about serious stuff. I do like going for long walks it does clear your mind I’ll do it more when I get the time it does sound like a good idea. Got a nice forest near me too (hopefully I won’t get lost in it!). Spending time with strangers ain’t really an option, I’m far too shy and socially inept. "Little Monster" <r…@localhost.localdomain> wrote in message

news:c00d2b20cab8f0a50ee0af06d2814470@news.teranews.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Tue, 20 Apr 2004 08:53:09 +0100, the world was enlightented by Anon, > unto whom the words are attributed: > >> Well, we’re here, for what good it may do… > > It does do good but unfortunately I only come here when I feel down. > > But damn I’m terrified of my own life, I keep becoming increasingly bitter > > and apathetic. I hate it. I’m turning into Darkfalz! When ‘friends’ get > > together with girls or guys I get so jealous its just not normal then it > > sets off a mood swing. I HATE who I’m becoming and its hard to fight it. > Sounds like you need to get out more – I mean in the day-time, on your > own, away from people sense.  Seriously, communing with nature does you a > power of good, clears your head.  Go for long walks on your own, not > expecting or inviting any contact with anyone, and don’t permit yourself > to think about people either.  Take an interest in your surroundings, > listen to the birds, see enjoy what you see around you.  Above all, don’t > let it become a chore, because that will just create something else for > you to become bitter about.  ?  Spend more > time in the company of strangers – after all, they are merely friends you > haven’t met yet… > Monster > — > Who stole my sig?  Who stole it? > Own up, dammit!!  It was YOU, wasn’t it?

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"Anon" <a…@anon.com> wrote in message

news:40851642$0$80552$c3e8da3@news.astraweb.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> > Yeah I hate people too. > > I used to get disturbed by it feeling bitter and hoping something bad will > > happen to most people with girlfriends/ boyfriends or even just people > with > > friends, but now I embrace my hatred towards the human race. > > I don’t even care what happens to me anymore. > > It’s cool not caring. > That’s what I don’t wanna turn into. > I still don’t hate hate them. I get awful jealous but I can see myself > becoming like that. Slowly but surely its gonna happen then I’ll never get a > chance to be happy cause I’d be too bitter to find anyone.

It’s no big deal. If it happens, it happens. Most people out there would rather kill you and steal your wallet than tell you the time when you ask anyway so you have good reason to hate them. It must be something like 95% of the human population is evil. You’ll simply be avoiding those evil people who would screw you over. I had some religious nut babbling about god come around the other day and even he said that god had abandoned earth and that the devil is in control. Explains alot. Anyway, seeya. Good luck.

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On Mon, 19 Apr 2004 13:15:51 +0100, the world was enlightented by Anon, unto whom the words are attributed: > A girl (yes a female!) brought me a present for no occasion too! I don’t

Wish people would do that for me :-/ > Anyway things seem to be looking up, but still I feel alone. When one part > of my loneliness seems to be getting better I dwell on the other part > instead of thinking its better than it was before when you had neither > parts.

Well, we’re here, for what good it may do… Monsterre — Who stole my sig?  Who stole it? Own up, dammit!!  It was YOU, wasn’t it?

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> When is/was your birthday?  i was going to send you a card just to let you > know someone was thinking of you but two things stopped me.  Your email addy > doesn’t look real and being that i am a guy i thought it might be seen in > the wrong light

Thanks for the kind offer But as I’ve said before when I was whining about not having a friend to write something about me for my high school year book and got some kind person offering that they’d write something up I could submit; its just not the same. But thanks anyway if you were a chick I’d say its sweet you offered….. but in this case that would be gay "fallout" <fallo…@comcast.net> wrote in message

news:f7Sgc.171820$JO3.100901@attbi_s04… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi Anon, i’m happy for you and hope the gift is something very cool or > sweet. . > In any case a happy belated birthday and please continue to post and let > us/me know how the gifting turns out. > Take care Anon, stay safe. > tom > "Anon" <a…@anon.com> wrote in message > news:4083c348$0$13937$c3e8da3@news.astraweb.com… > > A girl (yes a female!) brought me a present for no occasion too! I don’t > > know what it is yet. But this is the first time anyone has brought me > > anything (non family and after the age of 10 when I stopped having ‘kiddy’ > > birthday parties). > > I felt so happy when she told me. > > It reminded me, however, of how bad its been. I was thinking on my 16th > > birthday a friend sent me an e-card. And since my birthday is in the > school > > holidays no one remembers (since I never celebrated it). The card was > really > > funny and I was touched that someone thought of me who was non family. > Every > > single birthday since I’ve thought of that card. But haven’t got any cards > > (apart from family of course). > > But anyway my 18th birthday was a joke. I seriously can’t even remember > it. > > All I remember is dredging it for 2 years before it because family would > be > > asking what I’m gonna do for it and not knowing what to say. The one thing > I > > can remember is going to bed being glad it was over. I’m pretty much gonna > > be like that for my 21st probably. > > My most recent birthday I can’t remember either. God damn sad. Just > another > > day in the year. > > I hope next birthday I get some cards from new ‘friends’ I’ve made and get > > to go out too. > > Anyway things seem to be looking up, but still I feel alone. When one part > > of my loneliness seems to be getting better I dwell on the other part > > instead of thinking its better than it was before when you had neither > > parts.

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A girl (yes a female!) brought me a present for no occasion too! I don’t know what it is yet. But this is the first time anyone has brought me anything (non family and after the age of 10 when I stopped having ‘kiddy’ birthday parties). I felt so happy when she told me. It reminded me, however, of how bad its been. I was thinking on my 16th birthday a friend sent me an e-card. And since my birthday is in the school holidays no one remembers (since I never celebrated it). The card was really funny and I was touched that someone thought of me who was non family. Every single birthday since I’ve thought of that card. But haven’t got any cards (apart from family of course). But anyway my 18th birthday was a joke. I seriously can’t even remember it. All I remember is dredging it for 2 years before it because family would be asking what I’m gonna do for it and not knowing what to say. The one thing I can remember is going to bed being glad it was over. I’m pretty much gonna be like that for my 21st probably. My most recent birthday I can’t remember either. God damn sad. Just another day in the year. I hope next birthday I get some cards from new ‘friends’ I’ve made and get to go out too. Anyway things seem to be looking up, but still I feel alone. When one part of my loneliness seems to be getting better I dwell on the other part instead of thinking its better than it was before when you had neither parts.

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Hi Anon, i’m happy for you and hope the gift is something very cool or sweet. When is/was your birthday?  i was going to send you a card just to let you know someone was thinking of you but two things stopped me.  Your email addy doesn’t look real and being that i am a guy i thought it might be seen in the wrong light. In any case a happy belated birthday and please continue to post and let us/me know how the gifting turns out. Take care Anon, stay safe. tom "Anon" <a…@anon.com> wrote in message

news:4083c348$0$13937$c3e8da3@news.astraweb.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> A girl (yes a female!) brought me a present for no occasion too! I don’t > know what it is yet. But this is the first time anyone has brought me > anything (non family and after the age of 10 when I stopped having ‘kiddy’ > birthday parties). > I felt so happy when she told me. > It reminded me, however, of how bad its been. I was thinking on my 16th > birthday a friend sent me an e-card. And since my birthday is in the school > holidays no one remembers (since I never celebrated it). The card was really > funny and I was touched that someone thought of me who was non family. Every > single birthday since I’ve thought of that card. But haven’t got any cards > (apart from family of course). > But anyway my 18th birthday was a joke. I seriously can’t even remember it. > All I remember is dredging it for 2 years before it because family would be > asking what I’m gonna do for it and not knowing what to say. The one thing I > can remember is going to bed being glad it was over. I’m pretty much gonna > be like that for my 21st probably. > My most recent birthday I can’t remember either. God damn sad. Just another > day in the year. > I hope next birthday I get some cards from new ‘friends’ I’ve made and get > to go out too. > Anyway things seem to be looking up, but still I feel alone. When one part > of my loneliness seems to be getting better I dwell on the other part > instead of thinking its better than it was before when you had neither > parts.

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