Lonely Loneliness

Another harmful truth.

Question:

- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->From: "Davide" >is.de> >As all the truth that I have discovered late in my life, they start to enter >slowly in my head, since I am (like many others) not well disposed to accept >painful truth. >At a certain point they appear clear in my mind. >Yesterday was a good day. >As all the Sunday from sometimes untill now, I take a train a go to a near >city where there is a lot of movement of tourist, students, young people, >families. >In the central square there is a cruch with a staircase in front. >People use to sit there and watch the castle in the front, the fontain of >the Neptune, and the big square. Someone play a guitar and sings. >After I moved to another place where there was a live concert. I was >enjoying the music. >At that I did alone, as usual. But the loneliness wasn’t bothering me. >Sometimes alone means also more free (sometimes) >At the end it was a good day. >But I understood that anxiety doesn’t leave me when I am happy.  I think I >feel more anxious when I feel happy than when I feel "normally" sad. >This is the truth that I have realized. >Anxiety is more bearable with depression. When you’re happy, anxiety is >still there to waste your party, and soon the depression will return. >I think that anxiety+happiness is excitation which drags down your energy. >This mix isn’t good at all such as sadness+anxiety. >While depression tends to shut down anxiety (so I think), excitation tends >to make bigger your anxiety, until you finish all your energy. >As a result of this anxiety, I had a night of poor sleep (3 1/2 hours) and I >was irrationally worring about this workday (kind of OCD). >When I will feel "normally" happy and not anxious ? >Davide

Try hanging around the same people for a very long time.  You’ll feel comfortable around them.  Just them, but it’s better than nothing Grachman, The

Response:

As all the truth that I have discovered late in my life, they start to enter slowly in my head, since I am (like many others) not well disposed to accept painful truth. At a certain point they appear clear in my mind. Yesterday was a good day. As all the Sunday from sometimes untill now, I take a train a go to a near city where there is a lot of movement of tourist, students, young people, families. In the central square there is a cruch with a staircase in front. People use to sit there and watch the castle in the front, the fontain of the Neptune, and the big square. Someone play a guitar and sings. After I moved to another place where there was a live concert. I was enjoying the music. At that I did alone, as usual. But the loneliness wasn’t bothering me. Sometimes alone means also more free (sometimes) At the end it was a good day. But I understood that anxiety doesn’t leave me when I am happy.  I think I feel more anxious when I feel happy than when I feel "normally" sad. This is the truth that I have realized. Anxiety is more bearable with depression. When you’re happy, anxiety is still there to waste your party, and soon the depression will return. I think that anxiety+happiness is excitation which drags down your energy. This mix isn’t good at all such as sadness+anxiety. While depression tends to shut down anxiety (so I think), excitation tends to make bigger your anxiety, until you finish all your energy. As a result of this anxiety, I had a night of poor sleep (3 1/2 hours) and I was irrationally worring about this workday (kind of OCD). When I will feel "normally" happy and not anxious ? Davide

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