Here I am again…
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Hi again.. >It is ok to cry.. and I have felt that way too.. but bit by bit.. life seeps >back in.. >Don’t give up believing in you.. Kay
But … how long must I wait?… what will it take… Will it change?… Will I change from being a LoneWolf to a Social being? When will people start like me when the meet me for the first time? I saw a man last night on tv that had been lonely for 10 years.. Is that my faith.? Should I accept it? Should I do a makeover on myself. Change my personallity and by new cloth..? Will it help? There are few people I look up to.. 2pac is one. I don’t come from the same rough neighbourhood as him.. but he moves me.. I like to quote him… "Things will never change.." Sorry.. //LW – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Pamela >"Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message >news:950297067.276442@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… >> Hi again.. >> The stars are so far away. I can’t feel the touch of others who also is >> looking at the stars.. >> The silence in the night makes me remember that I am cursed a life in >> loneliness.. >> I’m sorry.. I just can’t feel anything else than my heart… >> L.W.
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Hi agin… >what can you change in your life?
I don’t know.. I have been trying to change a lot in my life. But it ain’t that easy.. Do you mean like physical stuff like my jobb and where I live or more personallity? >I welcome local numbers, even though I almost never actually use the phone… >that is habit – just got used to not making calls over the years for several >reasons… though I used to have my number on my webpage and welcome incoming >calls… maybe Ill put it up again (and bless the little answering machine >filtering the pranks LOL 
That was quite a good idea.. I will give it a thought.. I have never actually thought that thought.. >it’s great that you see light at the end of the tunnel… hope is all I had at >times and that was tough… I can only imagine losing all hope as some seem >to… keeping in touch with myself by writing to myself helped me keep moving >toward the light… and friends help too…
friends is my problem.. I don’t have any.. Regards LW
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It won’t change unless you want to change it.. I’m sorry, that is the only answer I have.. You have to look inside, as well as give freely of yourself to understand what it is in other’s perceptions that you are not presenting that is the man who is you inside.. that is the value of support, showing you how others perceive your thoughts and words and actions as you put them to text and post them.. I can listen, I can be your friend, I can give you my opinion, but I can’t tell you how, when, why or make it better for you.. it always begins inside.. and it always extends without.. you must wish change or to feel better about yourself, or it isn’t going to happen.. Pamela "Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message
news:950640444.689637@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi again.. > >It is ok to cry.. and I have felt that way too.. but bit by bit.. life > seeps > >back in.. > >Don’t give up believing in you.. Kay > But … how long must I wait?… what will it take… Will it change?… > Will I change from being > a LoneWolf to a Social being? When will people start like me when the meet > me for the first time? > I saw a man last night on tv that had been lonely for 10 years.. Is that my > faith.? Should I accept it? > Should I do a makeover on myself. Change my personallity and by new cloth..? > Will it help? > There are few people I look up to.. 2pac is one. I don’t come from the same > rough neighbourhood as him.. but he moves me.. > I like to quote him… > "Things will never change.." > Sorry.. > file://LW > >Pamela > >"Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message > >news:950297067.276442@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… > >> Hi again.. > >> The stars are so far away. I can’t feel the touch of others who also is > >> looking at the stars.. > >> The silence in the night makes me remember that I am cursed a life in > >> loneliness.. > >> I’m sorry.. I just can’t feel anything else than my heart… > >> L.W.
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Hi LoneWolf… do you like you? for me, loneliness is the state of wanting and not finding whatever it is I want… usualy, in social terms… your lethargy sounds like signs of depression and if you find you actually stop getting out of bed or your bills don’t get paid r you don’t take care of yourself as you used to, then I’d suggest speaking to a professional… I sometimes feel the depression feeling where I want to give up on everything, but if a few days go by and it doesn’t go away, I’d be concerned… I did the club route for a few years… went for the dancing since I don’t drink or smoke… it didn’t bring me much more than exercise and the pleasure and comfort of physical touches… that’s healthy and very necessary for real peace and happiness in this world from my perspective… we are physical beings… most seem to choose some sort of value system of believe that justifies their loneliness and being alone physically… I think that’s a delusion that hurts them and those around them, for the natural life force they are is repressed and the energy must find other releases, usually not as positive… I hope you leave a door open to the possibility that someone might like you someday, for it you don’t then it’s unlikely anyone will… by the few words you’ve share here, in words I like you honest love, ric – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Mr LoneWolf wrote in message <950132214.187…@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk>… >Here I am again.. >The last time I was here I was sad and lonely.. >Things got better and I left ASL to show myself that I could cope with >the situation. That lonliness was oki. >Now here I am again.. I don’t really know where to begin.. >I feel like I am losing grip (of reality and Myself).. I have trouble >getting >to bed at night and getting up in the morning. It feels like I don’t want >the day to begin in >the morning.. I open my eyes and close them again trying to fall asleep… >If I only knew that my situation could change.. >I am a silent and lonely person to the bone.. I haven’t just been lonely for >the last couple of months.. >I _am_ a lonely person.. >I can try to be social,funny and nice but it will evently rip off.. >I have tried to change who I am.. I have tried to be social and meet >people.. >But It doesn’t work.. >People don’t like me.. and that’s that.. >The fact is that I have been lonely for so long that nobody means anything >to me and I don’t mean >anything to no one. Anyway.. I love to be around people so I often go out >clubbing. A pretty >crazy thing to do when you ain’t a social kind of guy but I can’t help >myself. When Friday come >I must go out. >Another strange things is when someone is touching me skin to skin I feel >all warm (can’t explain it better).. >Hope you out there understand what I mean (and you don’t hate me for what I >have said).. >The reason that I write these lines is to make you outhere aware of that It >exist people that are >really lonely and have been that for a long time.. >Regards. >LoneWolf
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Hi again… if you’re still out there I’ll try to respond some more now Mr LoneWolf wrote in message <950640790.492…@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk>… >Hi again… >>what can you change in your life? >I don’t know.. I have been trying to change a lot in my life. But it ain’t >that easy.. >Do you mean like physical stuff like my jobb and where I live or more >personallity?
I meant anything… when I am losing hope or feeling overwhelmed by something – when I am feeling apathy or compacency… when I just don’t like something I’m experiencing… I look at everything in my life and focus on the things I can actually change… and then I explore what might happen if I changed something… and I choose something that seems like it might have some sort of positive outcome… that usually reminds me I do have some control over myself and my life and helps me feel better about everything… and in a way, it changes the personality I project because I focus on the positive I can do… >>I welcome local numbers, even though I almost never actually use the >>phone… that is habit – just got used to not making calls over the years >>for several reasons… though I used to have my number on my >>webpage and
welcome incoming calls… maybe Ill put it up again >>and bless the little answering machine filtering the pranks LOL >That was quite a good idea.. I will give it a thought.. I have never >actually thought that thought..
I actually hesitate putting the new numbers up now (so a word of caution) because I did have a mild stalking problem that only stopped because I moved and changed numbers… but that’s not why I moved and I found the answering machine screened the pests well enough… if I wasn’t sharing space with others who’d be effected by the ringing of the phone, I’d probably not be hesitating… but the fact that there are people out there who don’t take no for an answer or some who don’t stop trying to get your attention even when you make it clear you’d like them to stop is something to be considered when putting your contact info out there publically… >>it’s great that you see light at the end of the tunnel… hope is all I had >>at times and that was tough… I can only imagine losing all hope as >>some
seem to… keeping in touch with myself by writing to myself >>helped me keep moving toward the light… and friends help too… >friends is my problem.. I don’t have any..
I found one looking for a roommate on the web… maybe I got lucky… maybe I chose wisely… maybe both… I still want more social life and friends, so I’m still trying to find friends on the web and off… I put up a web page I tongue in cheek called "The Great Offline Friends Search" and people have reached out after reading it… a few I still need to contact in this local area… I think the key is reaching out… sending the mail on thew web or sending the smile and eye contact offline… and reach out a lot and beyond the criteria you might think someone seeks… my roommie said he was looking for a female who might be interested in friendship or more in his ad for a roommate… I wrote back saying I’m not feemale, not looking for romance or sex, but welcome a friend… and we connected and his circumstances had changed (he’s sorta engaged now) and so it’s good for both of us… so you never know when or how a friend might be found… the only sure thing is nothing will happen if I do nothing… >Regards >LW
hope this helps some, honest love, ric
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pssss.. I like you.. you must like you.. it begins within and it extends without.. when you like yourself and you believe in yourself, the rest flows into place.. Hugs to you LoneWolf Pamela "Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message
news:950297480.134724@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi > >do you like you? > I don’t know.. Sometimes.. But I don’t like my life.. > >for me, loneliness is the state of wanting and not finding whatever it is I > >want… usualy, in social terms… > thats loneliness for me to.. and the lack of company when you want to share > problems and happines.. or just someone to talk to.. > >I sometimes feel the depression feeling where I want to give up on > everything, > >but if a few days go by and it doesn’t go away, I’d be concerned… > It’s like I walk in a long tunnel. I see that it’s light at the end. But I > am unsure if I have > moved nearer the tunnel for each step I take. I just walk.. and walk.. I > don’t know > if it is meant that I should walk all my life. If it is that I don’t want to > live. > >I hope you leave a door open to the possibility that someone might like you > >someday, for it you don’t then it’s unlikely anyone will… by the few > words > >you’ve share here, in words I like you > It doesn’t matter what I feel about myself. I know that people generally > don’t like me.. > Best regards.. > L.W.
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LoneWolf, It is ok to cry.. and I have felt that way too.. but bit by bit.. life seeps back in.. Don’t give up believing in you.. Kay Pamela "Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message
news:950297067.276442@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi again.. > The stars are so far away. I can’t feel the touch of others who also is > looking at the stars.. > The silence in the night makes me remember that I am cursed a life in > loneliness.. > I’m sorry.. I just can’t feel anything else than my heart… > L.W.
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Mr LoneWolf wrote in message <950297480.134…@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk>… >Hi >>do you like you? >I don’t know.. Sometimes.. But I don’t like my life..
what can you change in your life? >>for me, loneliness is the state of wanting and not finding whatever it is >>I
want… usualy, in social terms… >thats loneliness for me to.. and the lack of company when you want to >share
problems and happines.. or just someone to talk to.. I welcome local numbers, even though I almost never actually use the phone… that is habit – just got used to not making calls over the years for several reasons… though I used to have my number on my webpage and welcome incoming calls… maybe Ill put it up again (and bless the little answering machine filtering the pranks LOL of course there are few things sadder than a publically posted telephone number that never gets called… ideally I seek people in space to talk to… I have it good that one of the roommates I found (through www.sharerent.com and I thank them is becoming a friend >>I sometimes feel the depression feeling where I want to give up on
everything, but if a few days go by and it doesn’t go away, I’d be concerned… >It’s like I walk in a long tunnel. I see that it’s light at the end. But I
am unsure if I have moved nearer the tunnel for each step I take. I just walk.. and walk.. I don’t know if it is meant that I should walk all my life. If it is that I don’t want to live. it’s great that you see light at the end of the tunnel… hope is all I had at times and that was tough… I can only imagine losing all hope as some seem to… keeping in touch with myself by writing to myself helped me keep moving toward the light… and friends help too… >>I hope you leave a door open to the possibility that someone might like you
someday, for it you don’t then it’s unlikely anyone will… by the few words you’ve share here, in words I like you >It doesn’t matter what I feel about myself. I know that people generally >don’t like me..
I’ll respectfully disagree with you on this point… I believe it matters a lot… from my perspective… how you feel about yourself is who you are – what you project to others are your feelings about yourself… that, more than anything else, is identity and essense of personality… I can be wrong, but this is right for me at least… >Best regards.. >L.W.
thanks for the written conversation… hope you find what you seek and continue toward the light… honest love, ric I again up only go can go i down… so
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Hi again.. The stars are so far away. I can’t feel the touch of others who also is looking at the stars.. The silence in the night makes me remember that I am cursed a life in loneliness.. I’m sorry.. I just can’t feel anything else than my heart… L.W.
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Hi >do you like you?
I don’t know.. Sometimes.. But I don’t like my life.. >for me, loneliness is the state of wanting and not finding whatever it is I >want… usualy, in social terms…
thats loneliness for me to.. and the lack of company when you want to share problems and happines.. or just someone to talk to.. >I sometimes feel the depression feeling where I want to give up on everything, >but if a few days go by and it doesn’t go away, I’d be concerned…
It’s like I walk in a long tunnel. I see that it’s light at the end. But I am unsure if I have moved nearer the tunnel for each step I take. I just walk.. and walk.. I don’t know if it is meant that I should walk all my life. If it is that I don’t want to live. >I hope you leave a door open to the possibility that someone might like you >someday, for it you don’t then it’s unlikely anyone will… by the few words >you’ve share here, in words I like you
It doesn’t matter what I feel about myself. I know that people generally don’t like me.. Best regards.. L.W.
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Lone Wolf.. Welcome back to you.. but < A Friendly HUG> for continued loneliness.. I hear what you say more and more everyday and on the weekends from other young girls I meet to dance with.. I go dancing for the music and the energy and I feel good and have fun, just being silly with other people I am now meeting.. but it does not change the loneliness.. it postpones it.. I go in alone, I come home alone.. their is reality here at home, I am a mom and I am responsible to self but their seems to be no reality out there in reality is there.. it feels like the land of the lost to me and I am one who is very lost in this perspective.. and if I think to hard about life in general as I have lived.. I too have always lived in loneliness .. and my music is not in tune with the world around me.. you know what I mean Do me a favor… Kay.. right now.. read this and leave the PC.. put your coat on and your shoes.. <or at least socks> and go outside, really to the outside.. and take a deep breath.. exhale.. and then take one more as deep as you can.. and look up to the sky and the stars and the moon.. count them flickering one by one by two by two.. take another deep breath.. and exhale.. <that makes 3> now.. use all your senses but close your eyes and smell the air around you.. remember it to tell us here on the group.. Kay.. did you see the big dipper.. the Orien.. what pictures can you make out of the stars in your sky.. my moon is crescent here.. and the sky is black with bright flickering lights all around and within it.. And you know what.. if everyone does it.. right now.. you aren’t alone anymore are you.. same sky, same stars.. same moon.. after you do it.. tell us what it felt like and if you felt anyone else looking up at the same time too.. going out now to the porch to look myself at them too.. I need a deep crisp breath of real and solid too right now.. Pamela "Mr LoneWolf" <lonew…@post.netlink.se> wrote in message
news:950132214.187037@ro-esp3.cybercity.dk… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Here I am again.. > The last time I was here I was sad and lonely.. > Things got better and I left ASL to show myself that I could cope with > the situation. That lonliness was oki. > Now here I am again.. I don’t really know where to begin.. > I feel like I am losing grip (of reality and Myself).. I have trouble > getting > to bed at night and getting up in the morning. It feels like I don’t want > the day to begin in > the morning.. I open my eyes and close them again trying to fall asleep… > If I only knew that my situation could change.. > I am a silent and lonely person to the bone.. I haven’t just been lonely for > the last couple of months.. > I _am_ a lonely person.. > I can try to be social,funny and nice but it will evently rip off.. > I have tried to change who I am.. I have tried to be social and meet > people.. > But It doesn’t work.. > People don’t like me.. and that’s that.. > The fact is that I have been lonely for so long that nobody means anything > to me and I don’t mean > anything to no one. Anyway.. I love to be around people so I often go out > clubbing. A pretty > crazy thing to do when you ain’t a social kind of guy but I can’t help > myself. When Friday come > I must go out. > Another strange things is when someone is touching me skin to skin I feel > all warm (can’t explain it better).. > Hope you out there understand what I mean (and you don’t hate me for what I > have said).. > The reason that I write these lines is to make you outhere aware of that It > exist people that are > really lonely and have been that for a long time.. > Regards. > LoneWolf
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Here I am again.. The last time I was here I was sad and lonely.. Things got better and I left ASL to show myself that I could cope with the situation. That lonliness was oki. Now here I am again.. I don’t really know where to begin.. I feel like I am losing grip (of reality and Myself).. I have trouble getting to bed at night and getting up in the morning. It feels like I don’t want the day to begin in the morning.. I open my eyes and close them again trying to fall asleep… If I only knew that my situation could change.. I am a silent and lonely person to the bone.. I haven’t just been lonely for the last couple of months.. I _am_ a lonely person.. I can try to be social,funny and nice but it will evently rip off.. I have tried to change who I am.. I have tried to be social and meet people.. But It doesn’t work.. People don’t like me.. and that’s that.. The fact is that I have been lonely for so long that nobody means anything to me and I don’t mean anything to no one. Anyway.. I love to be around people so I often go out clubbing. A pretty crazy thing to do when you ain’t a social kind of guy but I can’t help myself. When Friday come I must go out. Another strange things is when someone is touching me skin to skin I feel all warm (can’t explain it better).. Hope you out there understand what I mean (and you don’t hate me for what I have said).. The reason that I write these lines is to make you outhere aware of that It exist people that are really lonely and have been that for a long time.. Regards. LoneWolf
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