Lonely Loneliness

And here I thought I was all alone in the world!

Question:

Hi all, Good to see that I’m not alone in this lonely hell. What can I say but misery loves company! A brief introduction: I’m 27, male, and so very average in appearance. Oh, and I don’t have much of a ‘personality’. My bank account lacks about three or four zeroes to qualify for ’sparkling’. And I live in the wonderfully bizarre country of South Africa. I’ve never had a girlfriend, and won’t ever have one. Needless to say, I’m a genetic dead-end. Yep, involuntary celibacy isn’t just a downer, it’s a life wrecker. I know all about pain, worthlessness, depression and loneliness. Thought about suicide a lot until about a year ago. On more than one occasion I had the gun to my head. Only one problem, I’m a christian and I couldn’t do it. Not yet anyway. Not as long as my mother’s still alive. She’s the only person that still cares about my existence. It would destroy her life as well. So I’m doing the responsible thing and I’m living as the walking dead. My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet? I have it mostly under control, but every now and again it surges back with a vengeance. Also note that alcohol does not work. All you end up doing is hurling all over the furniture. Best regards from the african bush, J.

Response:

southern_cross_regim…@yahoo.com (Morbid_Plague) wrote in news:3f0727d0.0410011322.5cc06e9c@posting.google.com: > My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet?

SSRIs & psychotherapy are a good start.  As to the horrors of youth, there’s no solution except aging. — "It’s not a toy, it’s a real oven that bakes muffins, and it’s powered by Love." –Sea Lab 2021.

Response:

southern_cross_regim…@yahoo.com (Morbid_Plague) wrote in message <news:3f0727d0.0410011322.5cc06e9c@posting.google.com>… > Hi all, > Good to see that I’m not alone in this lonely hell. What can I say but > misery loves company! > A brief introduction: I’m 27, male, and so very average in appearance. > Oh, and I don’t have much of a ‘personality’. My bank account lacks > about three or four zeroes to qualify for ’sparkling’.

"Personality" = bank balance. Got that bit right. Though this tends to be more so after the age of 40. At your age, you could still get marks for "potential". Try looking as if you’re going places. (Try believing it first.) > And I live in > the wonderfully bizarre country of South Africa. > I’ve never had a girlfriend, and won’t ever have one. Needless to say, > I’m a genetic dead-end. Yep, involuntary celibacy isn’t just a downer, > it’s a life wrecker. I know all about pain, worthlessness, depression > and loneliness. Thought about suicide a lot until about a year ago. On > more than one occasion I had the gun to my head. Only one problem, I’m > a christian and I couldn’t do it. Not yet anyway. Not as long as my > mother’s still alive. She’s the only person that still cares about my > existence. It would destroy her life as well. So I’m doing the > responsible thing and I’m living as the walking dead. > My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet?

My own preferred "solutions", for what they’re worth: 1. wanking 2. posting idiotic crap on newsgroups 3. drinking 4. smoking (tobacco, can’t be doing with the other stuff) 5. entertaining absurd, impossible "romances" with women in other countries the other side of the world who only ever get to see me through a blurred, misfocussed webcam 6. working longer and longer hours 7. getting older 8. subscribing to a toytown cable Internet/phone provider. That way you can relieve your loneliness by talking to the technical support people whenever your Net connection or phone stop working, which is frequently 9. wanking > I have it mostly under control, but every now and again it surges back > with a vengeance. Also note that alcohol does not work. All you end up > doing is hurling all over the furniture.

That means you’re drinking the "wrong stuff, at the wrong time, in the wrong place" as John Kerry would say. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Best regards from the african bush, > J.

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Dear Morbid, You didn’t mention why you’ve never had a girlfriend and won’t. The staggering truth about the vast majority of people…is that we are all stupendously ordinary…TV and the media may make it appear that the world is crawling with fascinating and beautiful people who never work or have problems..but most people really do live lives of "quiet desperation" . I know this  will probably sound like a cliche –but go and try to find someone else to help out…To make a friend you need to be a friend..and you may find someone of similar heart doing the exact same thing!! Greetings in Christ…Your sister, F "Morbid_Plague" <southern_cross_regim…@yahoo.com> wrote in message

news:3f0727d0.0410011322.5cc06e9c@posting.google.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi all, > Good to see that I’m not alone in this lonely hell. What can I say but > misery loves company! > A brief introduction: I’m 27, male, and so very average in appearance. > Oh, and I don’t have much of a ‘personality’. My bank account lacks > about three or four zeroes to qualify for ’sparkling’. And I live in > the wonderfully bizarre country of South Africa. > I’ve never had a girlfriend, and won’t ever have one. Needless to say, > I’m a genetic dead-end. Yep, involuntary celibacy isn’t just a downer, > it’s a life wrecker. I know all about pain, worthlessness, depression > and loneliness. Thought about suicide a lot until about a year ago. On > more than one occasion I had the gun to my head. Only one problem, I’m > a christian and I couldn’t do it. Not yet anyway. Not as long as my > mother’s still alive. She’s the only person that still cares about my > existence. It would destroy her life as well. So I’m doing the > responsible thing and I’m living as the walking dead. > My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet? > I have it mostly under control, but every now and again it surges back > with a vengeance. Also note that alcohol does not work. All you end up > doing is hurling all over the furniture. > Best regards from the african bush, > J.

Response:

Eerie Cabinets of Dr. Rodent’s post: > southern_cross_regim…@yahoo.com (Morbid_Plague) wrote in > news:3f0727d0.0410011322.5cc06e9c@posting.google.com: >> My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet? > SSRIs & psychotherapy are a good start.  As to the horrors of youth, > there’s no solution except aging.

Anti-depressants and counselling helped me mute the pain/rage. Also realizing that it’s not unusual to feel this inadequate so get used to it. Like Eerie says aging can help (sometimes it’s depressing though). Finding stuff to do that takes your mind off your misery is useful. If you actually like being with people, joining some kind of club could work.

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Sklenge <skle…@yahoo.co.uk> wrote in news:BD85F063.23D5D%sklenge@yahoo.co.uk: > Like Eerie says aging can help (sometimes it’s depressing though).

As of yet it’s not as bad as being a boy. — "It’s not a toy, it’s a real oven that bakes muffins, and it’s powered by Love." –Sea Lab 2021.

Response:

I started up my own nation state, Olland. As I type this, I am 1 hour ahead of GMT, as I go off OMT. I’ve got skalds to compose and stuff like that concerning the mighty deeds of my realm. Also got to have a constitution or something. I’ve already got the Ollish National Anthem though, it’s "The Moonwomb" and it’s not really very good. Probbly needs re-composing. Ollish national costume involves wearing crap, cheapo clothes from Primark or somewhere like that. Any given coat will always have missing buttons because the Ollish King is totally crap with his hands and can’t sew or anything. There’s Ollish Cuisine though, a couple of recipes there: Sandcastle Salad Sandwiches, Sandcastle Stew, Sandcastle-Fried Mushrooms + Neutron Sandwiches (the Sandcastle prefix doesn’t apply to these latter as they were invented years ago before the founding of the Ollish Nation). There’s Ollish Art, which is in line with the Serendipitous / Paranoiac school of painting. There’s a National Animal too, the Spider. This creature is immortalised on the wall in the living room of Olizaus (the capital of Olland) by this freaky kind of novelty Halloween spider thing. When you switch it on, and make a loud noise near it, it trembles into motion, emitting a really eerie, theremin-like wail, and its eyes light up. There is a law in Olland that says that no man may harm a spider, as they deserve respect and stuff. Anyway, a whole bunch of other rubbish like that. And I’ve even been eligible for international aid!There’s an army from an allied nation on my doorstep as I type this, sent to disperse certain spiritual evils that have been gnawing at the very borders of my desmesne. Start your own country – it’s an eye-opener. It’ll certainly keep you busy, as it has myself. OTS "Morbid_Plague" <southern_cross_regim…@yahoo.com> wrote in message

news:3f0727d0.0410011322.5cc06e9c@posting.google.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi all, > Good to see that I’m not alone in this lonely hell. What can I say but > misery loves company! > A brief introduction: I’m 27, male, and so very average in appearance. > Oh, and I don’t have much of a ‘personality’. My bank account lacks > about three or four zeroes to qualify for ’sparkling’. And I live in > the wonderfully bizarre country of South Africa. > I’ve never had a girlfriend, and won’t ever have one. Needless to say, > I’m a genetic dead-end. Yep, involuntary celibacy isn’t just a downer, > it’s a life wrecker. I know all about pain, worthlessness, depression > and loneliness. Thought about suicide a lot until about a year ago. On > more than one occasion I had the gun to my head. Only one problem, I’m > a christian and I couldn’t do it. Not yet anyway. Not as long as my > mother’s still alive. She’s the only person that still cares about my > existence. It would destroy her life as well. So I’m doing the > responsible thing and I’m living as the walking dead. > My question is this: Has anyone figured out how to mute the pain yet? > I have it mostly under control, but every now and again it surges back > with a vengeance. Also note that alcohol does not work. All you end up > doing is hurling all over the furniture. > Best regards from the african bush, > J.

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