Lonely Loneliness

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Hello Christina! Welcome to ASL! In article <780605$3…@dragon.sk.sympatico.ca>,   "Christina" <christina.sei…@sk.sympatico.ca> wrote: > Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now,

Why creepy? Lurking is OK. > and I feel the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. > Maybe this is more > for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it.

Why not? > Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] > and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in > Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been > close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away.

Are you originary of another state of Canada? There are further Canadian girls here (as Barbara, Chloe, Solo, in alphabetical order). > I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression > news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it > was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends.

There is quite a crowd here, too. But you may select some special ones with whom you relate better. > I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close > friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For > some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my > own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not > that there is any thing wrong with that.

Correct. Because of social pressure, the fact of not having friends is frowned upon. But isolation, due to an independent personality, may not be that negative. > Because I distance my self from the > world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no > one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t > let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some > thing.

It matters to be selective. You haven’t met anyone fitting you, perhaps. Some people feel the need to be surrounded by others, and is ready to become "like them". Others have more concern for their individuality, and will not make friends if the price to pay is become "like them". You seem to be very concerned. No reasons to feel a bad person, it may be just your character, or some bad experiences (maybe). > Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t > generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any > one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you.

Does the above mean that I cannot recruit you for my next silly flame war? What a shame! How to take over ASL without you? ) Seriously now: I like also these last remarks. We need people like you, who have no interest in flaming, and will not be judgemental. > I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit > of a distraction at times.

I don’thave a ICQ but I’ve a IQ. A figure too embarrassing to mention. You may pay a visit to: The ASL WebSite <http://homepages.infoseek.com/~aslhome/aslhome.html>. My ASL page <http://www.angelfire.com/mi/raffaele55/asl.html>. Best wishes. Enjoy your stay! Raffaele ———–== Posted via Deja News, The Discussion Network ==———- http://www.dejanews.com/       Search, Read, Discuss, or Start Your Own    

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On Sat, 23 Jan 1999 23:34:48 -0700, "Karim Nogas" <nog…@cadvision.com> attempted to chew gum and write the following: >Madrigal Swan wrote in message <36aaa2d0.31636…@nntp.netcom.ca>… >>On Sat, 23 Jan 1999 21:13:40 -0700, "Karim Nogas" >><nog…@cadvision.com> attempted to chew gum and write the following: >Madrigal, >Is this something you added or does your posting software automatically put >that line in?  It made me laugh… >8-)

I came up with it about four months ago for my email…  I liked it, so it put it on my newsreader…. >>The only people who’ll tell you otherwise are those who do drink and >>have a really full social life.  Easy to patronize from their point of >>view…. >Can’t stand drinking, bars, etc.   Never have, never will.

Bars aren’t actually that bad if you’re with friends who -aren’t- going to get completely and utterly drunk out of their minds.  I was with a couple friends in England a few months ago…  we went to a couple bars…  I watched them drink, they played pinball, we talked…  it was good. >>Heh…  I’ve had that sort of thing happen so many times that I just >>ignore it.  I figure I’ll "live" online for the rest of my days ’cause >>the "real world" is just too fucked to deal with. >Not quite the solution I’m looking for but I understand where you’re coming >from.

Unfortunately, I don’t think there -is- another solution.

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Hi, Kim.  <smile>  It’s nice of you to tell Christina that.  Lots of times people "delurk" because they found courage after someone else that they can relate to does, but often they don’t let that person know.  If you’ve read some, you know that Christina hasn’t been feeling all that well since she came here.  Not only does she have the flu, but she has it in the Canadian "deep freeze".  Minds me I need to be sending her a "checking on you" note.  Haven’t seen her here today.  Good to see you again….Jae kim…@erols.com wrote: > Thanks Christina, after reading you post I decided it was time to de-lurk.  Hang > in there were all in this together. > Kim

–             When the minds change with the seasons…..                    And our hearts are left behind….                           We are left with the uneasy feeling…..                                    That happiness may be hard to find….                                            James

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Thanks Jae, I feel it is important to let people know the kind of impact they have had in your life.  I personally have conversed with more people in the last day than I have in the last week.  Thought I might have forgotten how. Kim – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Jae wrote: > Hi, Kim.  <smile>  It’s nice of you to tell Christina that.  Lots of times people > "delurk" because they found courage after someone else that they can relate to does, > but often they don’t let that person know.  If you’ve read some, you know that > Christina hasn’t been feeling all that well since she came here.  Not only does she > have the flu, but she has it in the Canadian "deep freeze".  Minds me I need to be > sending her a "checking on you" note.  Haven’t seen her here today.  Good to see you > again….Jae > kim…@erols.com wrote: > > Thanks Christina, after reading you post I decided it was time to de-lurk.  Hang > > in there were all in this together. > > Kim > — >             When the minds change with the seasons….. >                    And our hearts are left behind…. >                           We are left with the uneasy feeling….. >                                    That happiness may be hard to find…. >                                            James

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jon wrote in message <36A6F8FE.E9151…@cesar.umd.edu>… >Karim, I just wanted to ask you what you meant when you say that you >supress the urge to socialize with some kind of rationalization?  I >think it is very rational to want to socialize with others.  It may not >be easy to do, but in my opinion very worth the risk.  Hopefully I hope >you don’t rationalize away your decision to join in the conversation. >:)

Rationalization occurs in the following manner:     1) I’m not good at socializing so it probably will not lead anywhere. When I do make the effort, I never feel     comfortable and at best, it leads to an acquaintance — a result that I am tired of when I see other guys with a girl on each arm.     2) Socializing in a university (and elsewhere) inevitably revolves around alcohol.  I can’t stand that environment so I simply avoid it.     3) The constant thought that I need to concentrate on school/work to the point where I am financially stable enough to then focus on relationships. In other words, now is not the time although I always worry about the point of no return. Anyway, I almost rationalized away the decision to join ASL but the party next door has made me reconsider.

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Madrigal Swan wrote in message <36aaa2d0.31636…@nntp.netcom.ca>… >On Sat, 23 Jan 1999 21:13:40 -0700, "Karim Nogas" ><nog…@cadvision.com> attempted to chew gum and write the following:

Madrigal, Is this something you added or does your posting software automatically put that line in?  It made me laugh… >>    2) Socializing in a university (and elsewhere) inevitably revolves >>around alcohol.  I can’t stand that environment so I simply avoid it. >Thank God I’m not the only one who feels like that!  They always >bullshit about how "you have a choice whether to drink or not" but >that’s all it is…  bullshit.  If you don’t want to be a hermit who >"lives" online, you have to be willing to slut around and drink >yourself stupid on a regular basis. >The only people who’ll tell you otherwise are those who do drink and >have a really full social life.  Easy to patronize from their point of >view….

Can’t stand drinking, bars, etc.   Never have, never will. >>Anyway, I almost rationalized away the decision to join ASL but the party >>next door has made me reconsider. >Heh…  I’ve had that sort of thing happen so many times that I just >ignore it.  I figure I’ll "live" online for the rest of my days ’cause >the "real world" is just too fucked to deal with.

Not quite the solution I’m looking for but I understand where you’re coming from. Take care, Karim

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On Sat, 23 Jan 1999 21:13:40 -0700, "Karim Nogas" <nog…@cadvision.com> attempted to chew gum and write the following: >Rationalization occurs in the following manner: >    1) I’m not good at socializing so it probably will not lead anywhere. >When I do make the effort, I never feel     comfortable and at best, it >leads to an acquaintance — a result that I am tired of when I see other >guys with a girl on each arm. >    2) Socializing in a university (and elsewhere) inevitably revolves >around alcohol.  I can’t stand that environment so I simply avoid it.

Thank God I’m not the only one who feels like that!  They always bullshit about how "you have a choice whether to drink or not" but that’s all it is…  bullshit.  If you don’t want to be a hermit who "lives" online, you have to be willing to slut around and drink yourself stupid on a regular basis.   The only people who’ll tell you otherwise are those who do drink and have a really full social life.  Easy to patronize from their point of view…. >Anyway, I almost rationalized away the decision to join ASL but the party >next door has made me reconsider.

Heh…  I’ve had that sort of thing happen so many times that I just ignore it.  I figure I’ll "live" online for the rest of my days ’cause the "real world" is just too fucked to deal with.  

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Hi Karim and Christina Christina, thank you for having encouraged him by your example. Karim, welcome to ASL! I’ve not much to add, as you just started a good discussion with Christina. It seems that the Canadian part of this NG is growing. You may pay a visit to the unofficial ASL-related sites below: The ASL WebSite <http://homepages.infoseek.com/~aslhome/aslhome.html>. My ASL page <http://www.angelfire.com/mi/raffaele55/asl.html>. Honest love Raffaele In article <36a581af.4974…@news.compusmart.ab.ca>,   nog…@cadvision.com (Karim Nogas) wrote: > Hello Christina, > Your post has inspired me enough to de-lurk as well.

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Thanks Christina, after reading you post I decided it was time to de-lurk.  Hang in there were all in this together. Kim – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Christina wrote: > Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel > the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more > for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it. > Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] > and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in > Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been > close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. > I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression > news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it > was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. > I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close > friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For > some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my > own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not > that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the > world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no > one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t > let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some > thing. > Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t > generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any > one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. > I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit > of a distraction at times. > — > christina

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Christina and Karim, I just wanted to welcome you to ASL.  Thanks for coming out to talk to us.  It does seem that depression and loneliness are closely linked.  I don’t think that I would classify them as being one and the same, but they certainly do affect each other.  Christina I too came here after spending quite a bit of time lurking on ASD…there were lots of great people there are there, but I definately feel more at home here.  Anyway I hope you make a lot of good friends here.  I’m sure you both will if you stick around for a while. Karim, I just wanted to ask you what you meant when you say that you supress the urge to socialize with some kind of rationalization?  I think it is very rational to want to socialize with others.  It may not be easy to do, but in my opinion very worth the risk.  Hopefully I hope you don’t rationalize away your decision to join in the conversation. I hope to hear more from both of you and again welcome to ASL, jon – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Karim Nogas wrote: > Hello Christina, > Your post has inspired me enough to de-lurk as well. > >Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] > >and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in > >Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been > >close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. > I am a 23 year old grad student in Edmonton and am originally from > Calgary. > >I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression > >news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it > >was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. > I found it hard to make the distinction. > >I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close > >friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For > >some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my > >own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not > >that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the > >world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no > >one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t > >let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some > >thing. > Those words are my sentiments exactly.  For the most part being alone > has not bothered me (I am an only child).  And while the urge to meet > people and socialize ocassionally arises, I often suppress it with > some kind of rationalization. > >Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t > >generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any > >one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. > Likewise.  You have my e-mail address as well. > Karim

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I removed this from Christina’s welcome thread… That’s right, little raffy… you can’t even welcome someone without showing what a smarm you are… do you really think flame wars are cute? Do you really think all the harm and disruption you have caused this group, is cute? Do you really think you are cute? Do you really think those kinds of remarks are appropriate to make to someone just arriving here? Oh well, I guess that’s the only way you can command any attention… put on the little fool hat, and just be yourself…                                  Michael In article <781vav$to…@nnrp2.dejanews.com>, raffa…@my-dejanews.com wrote: >Hello Christina!

  <raff’s babble snipped> – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Does the above mean that I cannot recruit you for my next silly flame >war? What a shame! How to take over ASL without you? ) >Seriously now: I like also these last remarks. We need people like you, >who have no interest in flaming, and will not be judgemental. >Raffaele >———–== Posted via Deja News, The Discussion Network ==———- >http://www.dejanews.com/       Search, Read, Discuss, or Start Your Own    

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Hello Christina, Your post has inspired me enough to de-lurk as well. >Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] >and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in >Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been >close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away.

I am a 23 year old grad student in Edmonton and am originally from Calgary. >I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression >news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it >was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends.

I found it hard to make the distinction. >I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close >friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For >some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my >own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not >that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the >world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no >one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t >let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some >thing.

Those words are my sentiments exactly.  For the most part being alone has not bothered me (I am an only child).  And while the urge to meet people and socialize ocassionally arises, I often suppress it with some kind of rationalization. >Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t >generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any >one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you.

Likewise.  You have my e-mail address as well. Karim

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Opps, sorry Bill, I forgot you from my list of Canadian ASLers. I were just speaking of girls, tough. Hi to you both again! In article <36A4537E.B37CF…@albedo.net>,   Bill <mrb…@albedo.net> wrote: >     Hello to a fellow Canadian, I’m from Southern Ontario. I know how cold it > gets out west, burr just thinking about it. Welcome to ASL enjoy your stay and > meet your new friends. > Bill > Christina wrote:

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Welcome Christina and thanks for de-lurking. Eddie (Chief) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Christina wrote in message <780605$3…@dragon.sk.sympatico.ca>… >Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel >the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more >for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it. >Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] >and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in >Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been >close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. >I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression >news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it >was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. >I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close >friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For >some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my >own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not >that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the >world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no >one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t >let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some >thing. >Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t >generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any >one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. >I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit >of a distraction at times. >– >christina

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Thank you Bill for carrying this message. As many new messages don’t appear on my screen, I hope more of you will carry the original message with the answer, please….? Christina wrote: > Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel > the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more > for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it.

Welcome Christina – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] > and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in > Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been > close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. > I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression > news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it > was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. > I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close > friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For > some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my > own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not > that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the > world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no > one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t > let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some > thing.

My son is 31 years now, and he loves it to be alone. He has many friends, but there’s no chance I’m going to be a opa (granddad) in short notice. He loves his life the way it is. To go to the movies or to enjoy a good restaurant is better done with an other person Christina, so you have someone to share memories with. But if you are happy with yourself, enjoy life as it comes. Make sure you are able and happy on your own. Its a good base for an independent life ahead of you. Later you can choose a person who you think is worthwhile to share your life with and it’s much easier to say no then. If you say you are a grouchy bear, we must believe you. But my wife (her name is Christina as well) has about a hundred Teddy bears in the house, so I’m used to the phenomena.(:-D Believe me,you are not a bad person, because you don’t let people close to you. Make yourself stronger and the distance between you and everybody else will be smaller and smaller by the month…. > Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t > generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any > one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you.

That’s a pity, I think. What I need most is to be judged, hopefully positively. A warm hug or a soft kiss might come out of the judgement. Stay as you are and feel comfortable, Christina I’m sure Caroline ads the ICQ on her ICQ-list (Hi Caroline) > I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit > of a distraction at times. > — > christina

Frans

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I forgot to tell you, you have to remove the x in my email address to email me. I am going to change that right now. — christina remove X to email me

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    Hello to a fellow Canadian, I’m from Southern Ontario. I know how cold it gets out west, burr just thinking about it. Welcome to ASL enjoy your stay and meet your new friends. Bill – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Christina wrote: > Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel > the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more > for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it. > Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] > and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in > Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been > close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. > I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression > news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it > was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. > I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close > friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For > some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my > own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not > that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the > world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no > one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t > let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some > thing. > Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t > generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any > one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. > I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit > of a distraction at times. > — > christina

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Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it. Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some thing. Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit of a distraction at times. — christina

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Hi Christina… I’m glad you decided to "de-lurk" and join us all out here. This is a really neat place and I hope you feel comfortable here. Thanks for sharing your story and I just wanna say that you’re not a bad person. You’re entitled to feel grouchy and your entitled to be cautious in letting others get too close to you. There’s nothing wrong with taking care of yourself and being careful. If there are reasons then in time you’ll discover them. Like all of us out here you’re just human. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Christina wrote in message <780605$3…@dragon.sk.sympatico.ca>… >Well, as creepy as it sounds, I have been lurking for awhile now, and I feel >the need to introduce myself and tell you more about me. Maybe this is more >for myself than you guys, cause maybe you just don’t want to hear it. >Where to begin… I’ll start with my stats, I am a student [20 years old] >and I am majoring in biology. I am living all alone in an appartment in >Saskatchewan Canada, where it is too cold I might add. I have always been >close to my family, but they have recently moved to far away. >I think I am more depressed than just lonely, and I lurked at the depression >news group for a while, but there are so many people there that I felt it >was just like a huge croud, and what I really want is friends. >I have been a loner all my life, I need my time alone. I have a few close >friends, from highschool, but I have generally not met any new friends. For >some reason I feel fine on my own, I go to movies alone, go shopping on my >own, and I generally do not feel the need to be surrounded by others, not >that there is any thing wrong with that. Because I distance my self from the >world, I often find myself alone, and wondering "does any one care?" But no >one is there. And then I wonder why I am such a grouchy bear and why I don’t >let people close to me, and I just think I must be a bad person or some >thing. >Any ways, I will be here. I will not put up much of a fight, cause I don’t >generally care about pettiness, and I tend not to flame people. But if any >one wants to talk, or to vent, I am here, and I won’t judge you. >I have a ICQ number, and it is  25238732, I do like ICQ but it can be a bit >of a distraction at times. >– >christina

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