Lonely Loneliness

To Truthseeker, or whomever it concerns

Question:

On Sun, 07 Nov 1999 14:20:28 GMT, mo…@tac.com.au (Chris) wrote these exquisite 47 lines of text: :===============: >I’ve seen some posts on here by someone called ‘Truthseeker’. I don’t >know if they are aimed at me, since there is a few people in ASL with >the name Chris.

Don’t worry… the only "Chris" I am abusing is myself.  Any mentions I may have made about a "Chris" were aimed solely at myself. truthseeker

Response:

On Sun, 07 Nov 1999 14:20:28 GMT, mo…@tac.com.au (Chris) wrote these exquisite 47 lines of text: :===============: >Oh, and another thing my councillors have said. They said that if a >few things started to go right, it would be a good foundation to build >on. By that, of course, they mean if a few .. maybe even .. person >took the time to get to know me. Here. In this country. Another point >I’ve been trying to make.

Thanks for the warning about Australia.  I didn’t know it was that mean over there.  I can’t imagine something like that happening even in San Diego! > Yesterday (Saturday) I went to get >some videos and a couple of girls talked to me. Of course, they were >abusing me about how I was there alone, and about how ugly they >thought I was ect ect. I didn’t know who they were, and I assume they >didn’t know me. I was just an obvious target because I was alone. >Their boyfriends and other friends found it funny, and I couldn’t help >thinking that they would probably still laugh if I had had a gun with >me at the time, and just turned around and blown my brains out in >front of them. Well, that’s what’s been happening.

Just think of those guys and girls as losers who are so cowardly that they have to stick together in numbers or they won’t be able to tolerate the trauma of being on their own.  Sorry they were being so mean like that. truthseeker

Response:

Hi Chris.. No worries.. we know the difference between Chris who posts and Truthseeker who’s name is Chris also.. And the problem has pretty much seems to have resolved, Truthseeker apologized and I believe he kinda learned a lesson.. but he was stressed to with all the negative posting.. it was crossposting problem and not ASL in a sense.. most of the negative posts you read were born of ASD few of us within this group posted on it or got involved in the group crossposting.. It may have actually helped because we got alot of new people as well as showed the differences in support and how important respect for each other’s differences are in the real world as well as the text born newsgroups.. I am glad you are walking around with a smile on your face.. and though sometimes people can be down right cruel out their when they are running in packs or groups with others.. ignore them.. it is showing their immaturity in picking on another who is not part of their so called normalcy.. they are *Not* the norm in the whole of real people.. I know.. that sounds like what everybody says.. but in actuality, if you think about it.. they will miss out on alot of wonderful people because they have closed doors and created for themselves petty relationships born of hurting other’s feelings.. they are not leaders as you will be in learning from your own trials, they are followers and can not even think of functioning outside of *the majorities* opinion.. feel sorry for people who are like this.. they have no mind of their own and wish so much to be part of a group that they would tear another apart for not being part of the followers.. I can assure you that as long as bitterness or cynicism does not become your way of dealing with others like that ..and in believing in you, building yourself, accepting them as flawed and closed in their own attitudes, seeing the response as wrong in having been the subject in another’s ridicule.. you will be stronger than they, more compassionate towards others, and in the long run be a person of more *real* value to the world than they will ever be…  As for what your psychologist said.. I kinda think that was pretty good advice.. loneliness, isolation and depression are chains that must be broken.. maybe just in finding for a little while the positive within the negative that happens will begin to stop the negatives from overwhelming in a sense and taking over in all that is seen in the day to day life… And Chris.. you are a nice guy.. show them.. reach.. give them a little insight with the smile, the wave, the nice to meet you, the common conversation… try to reach them so they in turn reach back within you.. You are gonna do just fine.. because you want to and you are willing to learn, grow and change.. Pamela Chris <mo…@tac.com.au> wrote in message

news:38258a98.47207084@news.fastlink.com.au… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I’ve seen some posts on here by someone called ‘Truthseeker’. I don’t > know if they are aimed at me, since there is a few people in ASL with > the name Chris. But if they are aimed at me .. well .. I don’t think I > should even waste time in making any kind of reply to them. Maybe this > so called ‘Truthseeker’ finds some kind of peace in abusing people, > maybe it makes them happy. If it does, well so be it, it’s not my > place to say what is right for them or what’s not. But in saying that, > I suppose reciving this abuse should have been expected, as it is most > people’s attitudes when they find that helping someone (most of the > time) is a two way street. When the person who requests the help needs > to do most of the work, the person who wants to help has to put > something in as well. Sometimes that goes beyond simple advice. That’s > the point I’ve been trying to make. Oh, and Truthseeker, if you’re > going to abuse me again, then try … and this might be difficult … > try to get away from those four letter words. Afterall, I can read > longer words, and it really isn’t impressive anymore. > Well I said I wasn’t going to respond to it, but it looks like I have. > Oh well. > So, as for what I’ve been doing. As always, I’ve been trying my best. > But, and as usual again, it dosn’t work. My councillors both have said > that I HAVE to talk to someone (and they mean face-to-face). They > don’t understand that I really really try to, but I can’t talk to > someone who just walks away, most times before I even say anything. > Yes, I try to smile, and to think happy thoughts, but as I’ve > maintained, people can’t read your mind. But it dosn’t matter what > your thinking if the person walks away from you as if you weren’t even > there. Actually, I tell I lie here. Yesterday (Saturday) I went to get > some videos and a couple of girls talked to me. Of course, they were > abusing me about how I was there alone, and about how ugly they > thought I was ect ect. I didn’t know who they were, and I assume they > didn’t know me. I was just an obvious target because I was alone. > Their boyfriends and other friends found it funny, and I couldn’t help > thinking that they would probably still laugh if I had had a gun with > me at the time, and just turned around and blown my brains out in > front of them. Well, that’s what’s been happening. > Oh, and another thing my councillors have said. They said that if a > few things started to go right, it would be a good foundation to build > on. By that, of course, they mean if a few .. maybe even .. person > took the time to get to know me. Here. In this country. Another point > I’ve been trying to make. > Chris > mo…@tac.com.au > ICQ#828643

Response:

I’ve seen some posts on here by someone called ‘Truthseeker’. I don’t know if they are aimed at me, since there is a few people in ASL with the name Chris. But if they are aimed at me .. well .. I don’t think I should even waste time in making any kind of reply to them. Maybe this so called ‘Truthseeker’ finds some kind of peace in abusing people, maybe it makes them happy. If it does, well so be it, it’s not my place to say what is right for them or what’s not. But in saying that, I suppose reciving this abuse should have been expected, as it is most people’s attitudes when they find that helping someone (most of the time) is a two way street. When the person who requests the help needs to do most of the work, the person who wants to help has to put something in as well. Sometimes that goes beyond simple advice. That’s the point I’ve been trying to make. Oh, and Truthseeker, if you’re going to abuse me again, then try … and this might be difficult … try to get away from those four letter words. Afterall, I can read longer words, and it really isn’t impressive anymore. Well I said I wasn’t going to respond to it, but it looks like I have. Oh well. So, as for what I’ve been doing. As always, I’ve been trying my best. But, and as usual again, it dosn’t work. My councillors both have said that I HAVE to talk to someone (and they mean face-to-face). They don’t understand that I really really try to, but I can’t talk to someone who just walks away, most times before I even say anything. Yes, I try to smile, and to think happy thoughts, but as I’ve maintained, people can’t read your mind. But it dosn’t matter what your thinking if the person walks away from you as if you weren’t even there. Actually, I tell I lie here. Yesterday (Saturday) I went to get some videos and a couple of girls talked to me. Of course, they were abusing me about how I was there alone, and about how ugly they thought I was ect ect. I didn’t know who they were, and I assume they didn’t know me. I was just an obvious target because I was alone. Their boyfriends and other friends found it funny, and I couldn’t help thinking that they would probably still laugh if I had had a gun with me at the time, and just turned around and blown my brains out in front of them. Well, that’s what’s been happening. Oh, and another thing my councillors have said. They said that if a few things started to go right, it would be a good foundation to build on. By that, of course, they mean if a few .. maybe even .. person took the time to get to know me. Here. In this country. Another point I’ve been trying to make. Chris mo…@tac.com.au ICQ#828643

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