Lonely Loneliness

from me and Eddie

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Thanks Gina, and no I never will be able to put everything and everyone behind me.  It’s you "all" that keep this fool going.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again you guys have helped me more than I’ve helped.  Just last night again I had a brother and 4 friends let me know with there actions/inaction’s that I wasn’t wanted.  Was a bad day as it was and with all the other stress it just helped me have 3 more seizures last night (2 yesterday afternoon).  So how’s my health, there are times I don’t care,usually when I start feeling a little better, but I rapidly go down hill after that little burst uphill.  I do look forward to those bursts uphill though.  I always kinda figured you have to take advantage of the good times, especially in my condition, as you never know when you’re gonna have them again.  A good time for me was making the mistake of trying to bowl last night with my seizures, shoulder, neck, arm and middle finger (from waiving it to much, haha).  Won’t do that again for a while but I did enjoy it last night when I wasn’t walking around in a daze and then on my knees from the seizures.  Oh well.  How did I get onto this.  Sorry folks my health is always on my mind as that in and of itself is what has led me to this loneliness and despair.  It runs me and when I try to run it, well then the cycle begins again.  Hope everyone had a nice weekend.  I’ll get back. Love Eddie (Chief) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Reg Riddle wrote in message <19981018213308.00818.00002…@ng144.aol.com>… >Hey Chief… >It’s good to see that you’ve made your way back.    That cybermonster should >have known better than to tangle with you.  <smile>  I do hope that you’re >feeling less stressed and doing much better.  You have to start taking better >care of you, dear Chief….and stop putting everything and everyone else ahead >of yourself.  I know you’ll never be able to do that though, will you ? Which >is one reason I think so highly of you.  Welcome back, Chief. >Hugs and Smiles, >Gina >"Now this old world don’t give much for choosing, > You can spend a lifetime driving yourself wild, > But I can take its punches laughing, don’t mind losing, > Just as long as I get to see you smile, every once in a while." >              —  Rea Chris

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Hey Chief… It’s good to see that you’ve made your way back.    That cybermonster should have known better than to tangle with you.  <smile>  I do hope that you’re feeling less stressed and doing much better.  You have to start taking better care of you, dear Chief….and stop putting everything and everyone else ahead of yourself.  I know you’ll never be able to do that though, will you ?  Which is one reason I think so highly of you.  Welcome back, Chief. Hugs and Smiles, Gina "Now this old world don’t give much for choosing,  You can spend a lifetime driving yourself wild,  But I can take its punches laughing, don’t mind losing,  Just as long as I get to see you smile, every once in a while."               —  Rea Chris

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Paula wrote in message <01bdfc40$438f1940$43f974c3@1>… >Hi Ric, how are ya?

loving my limbo, for a change and how are you? >> when my system hiccupped a little while back I had to re-download >>ASL and had more than 4000 messages "unread" LOL (some I’d >>already

read and responded to, but when you re-start there’s only the >>manual way to tell the computer this)… I marked them all "read" and >>browse through now, but many will be missed as I didn’t have time to >>read them all… >4000!!!!!! Wow…this IS a number… my exactly 1326 unread cannot be >compared LOL.

LOL… at the sound of the tone the exact number is 4012 <beep> that’s the last 30 days or so… and still, dejanews has even more, so some are not showing up even during these times of abundance >I still have them all marked as "unread"…still believing that someday >I’ll have the time to read ‘em…wonder when…tomorrow the Hiragana >test, for monday I have to know how to read Katakana…let alone >’practising speaking’ or grammar…<laugh>

LOL… I had about 1300 still unread before the hiccup… I’ve got 292 unread now, which is what’s come and not been read since I re-loaded… but there are still 4012 messages calling to me, however I mark them LOL >Ric, you do remember that you’re not a robot and need some rest and >sleep don’t you? >Aren’t you working too much…? {{HUG}}

({({({HUG})})}) and thank you… actually, I’m free again… not working… lounging around ever so leisurely as much as possible… well, sorta LOL… you’re reminding me that it’s time to update my "keep in touch" page… which reminds me that it’s time to focus some energy on my own writing and web site again… anyway, I hung up my garbageman (aka, sanitation engineer, recycled material specialist) uniform about two weeks ago I think (time is so relative for me LAM  … and I’ve been resting more (when I’m not glued to this computer  and actually getting some sleep… well, last night I did, at least and as you may know, I had a visitor for a few days and she just ran me ragged wanting to see and do everything and it’ll take me a week to recover from her exhuberance was a great fun visit when are you and Caro and Thomas coming? <snipped great lyric and my Q about it> >It’s from "The Promise", the solo(I think) album of Mike Pinder. Song >title "You’ll make it through".

I have that on vinyl in one of my boxes in storage… thanks… >So you too like Moody Blues do you… I’ve always loved your taste in >music…you know what’s good I can’t live without music I think…

the Moodies are in the group of artists that I *must have* – like if stranded on a desert island, which artists would you pack?… their romantic stuff (a lot of Justin Hayward) and philosophical stuff (all of them) fits right in with my perspective and who I am… music is the fluid carrying my spirits through my souls and words are the cells forming the bodies of my dreams I think in rhyme and feel in melody and seek in life to create harmony life without music would be… noise. >And hugs to you too Ric, >Paula

*HUGS* honest love, ric I like this – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->For we’ve got the music for your soul >We’ve got the rhythm to the roll >We hope the melody lingers in your mind >We’ve got the freedom of our youth >We’ve got the chance to speak the truth >So put your hopes, your wishes and dreams >In a song >                Nicky James

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Hi freinds, known and unknown… just passing along info – Eddie (Chief) has no access to ASL right now due to computer gremlins… he says he misses you much and will be back just as soon as tech support finishes the exorcism… an email to him would make his day/night and I’m mostly AFK today and tomorrow (life AFK?… wow  … so take care of yourselves and don’t give away my bean bag honest love, ric

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Hi Gang, and thanks Ric for passing the word on.  As you can see (at least I hope so, one never knows) I’m back with ASL.  Out of it for almost 48 hours battling this dam cybermonster and it appears at least to me that the beast is gone.  Had three pretty bad seizures today but if y’all had read a post I made to a mailing list earlier today you’d see how stressed I was, and stress helps me beat myself up pretty good sometimes.  Hope everyone can read this.  Thanks again Ric. Hugs Eddie (Chief) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -ric wrote in message … >Hi freinds, known and unknown… >just passing along info – Eddie (Chief) has no access to ASL right now >due to computer gremlins… he says he misses you much and will be back >just as soon as tech support finishes the exorcism… >an email to him would make his day/night >and I’m mostly AFK today and tomorrow (life AFK?… wow  … so take >care of yourselves and don’t give away my bean bag >honest love, ric

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Forgot to tell you that my server had missed a lot more posts than I had figured.  It downloaded 987 posts today dating back to October 2nd so I’ll probably be busy unless I give them the old heave hoe. Hugs Eddie (Chief) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -ric wrote in message … >Hi freinds, known and unknown… >just passing along info – Eddie (Chief) has no access to ASL right now >due to computer gremlins… he says he misses you much and will be back >just as soon as tech support finishes the exorcism… >an email to him would make his day/night >and I’m mostly AFK today and tomorrow (life AFK?… wow  … so take >care of yourselves and don’t give away my bean bag >honest love, ric

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Welcome back, Chief! Shalom and hugs, Nick In article <pDeW1.44$2S5….@news.cwix.com>, e…@cwix.com says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Hi Gang, and thanks Ric for passing the word on.  As you can see (at least I >hope so, one never knows) I’m back with ASL.  Out of it for almost 48 hours >battling this dam cybermonster and it appears at least to me that the beast >is gone.  Had three pretty bad seizures today but if y’all had read a post I >made to a mailing list earlier today you’d see how stressed I was, and >stress helps me beat myself up pretty good sometimes.  Hope everyone can >read this.  Thanks again Ric. >Hugs >Eddie (Chief) >ric wrote in message … >>Hi freinds, known and unknown… >>just passing along info – Eddie (Chief) has no access to ASL right now >>due to computer gremlins… he says he misses you much and will be back >>just as soon as tech support finishes the exorcism… >>an email to him would make his day/night >>and I’m mostly AFK today and tomorrow (life AFK?… wow  … so take >>care of yourselves and don’t give away my bean bag >>honest love, ric

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Hi Eddie and Paula and ASLers happy to see you posting here again Paula wrote in message <01bdfa79$4f48cd80$98f974c3@1>… >Hi Chief, >Good to see you back here. Good luck with catching up with all the >posts >(I’m 1308 behind, and I have no idea when I’ll manage to read ‘em . >Again, I’m really happy you managed to beat the evil gremlins and came >back. >Hugs, >Paula. >–

when my system hiccupped a little while back I had to re-download ASL and had more than 4000 messages "unread" LOL (some I’d already read and responded to, but when you re-start there’s only the manual way to tell the computer this)… I marked them all "read" and browse through now, but many will be missed as I didn’t have time to read them all… times like those I just trust in the energy al around and anything of real importance that asked for my attention will be brought to my attention again… besides I’ve had a busy week AFK (away from keyboard, for anyone who doesn’t know this abbreviation – and there’s a list of commonly used net abbreviations on the ASL Web Site (Info Section)… I just stopped in for a moment to download today’s posts (cuz I find if I skip a day, I miss some more)… still have AFK stuff to do tonight… >Living all together is the biggest challenge ever >Someone’s gonna come and set you right >Spread your wings and love will guide your flight >Get those good things into your life >You’ve got the real thing, and only love can bring >An ending to these troubled times. >                         Mike Pinder/Jim Dillon

which song and album is that one from, Paula?… so much music has fallen through the cracks on my mind since I left the music behind a few years ago, but when Moody Blues members slip through, it’s time for me to get back to being saved by the music again >Chief <e…@cwix.com> napisa

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