"Luminous beings are we…not this crude matter."
Question:
How true this is. For All of my life have I focused on my life in a physical sense. What do I look like? What do I do? What things do I have and what do others think of me? Who will share my life and what will she look like? So, for the last few days I have laid here and prayed and thought about this life of mine. Until tonight, I stopped thinking about it and started feeling about it. For it does not matter. All of these physical things do not matter. What does matter is who I am inside and where I am inside. My loneliness has always been of a physical nature. I have longed for someone to love and to love me. And all of this time, I thought that meant to always have someone at my side. Do not get me wrong, I do believe that that is a part of it, but I do not believe that it is the whole. I constantly worry about what I am going to do about my problems, and where I am going to come up with money to handle things and better my life. I worry about what girl is going to fall in love with me and love me. Does that matter? Of course, but not as much as me loving them or feeling love from inside. In every relationship, I have always felt the best when I am giving. I needed them to give back to confirm that I wasn’t being foolish. That my choices of who I gave to were correct. And when they did not, I doubted myself. My mind doubted my heart and soul. I guess what I am saying is that it is not wrong to give of my heart, but maybe foolish to demand it back for verification of my own feelings. What I am feeling now is incredible and I pray that it is the first step of many. I no longer have a great need for my physical being, other than those of pure survival. For it does not matter what I do with it as long as the results are what come from my heart and soul. I am feeling an abundance of self-worth and love. I feel no need for confirmation of who I am. I am inspired and full of strength. And when I begin to doubt myself or feel any less, I shall come back to these words that I lay before me in persistence that I shall return to where I am now. Thank you for letting me share.
Response:
You will be just fine with this in your heart and mind and soul. I hope you find all that you have longed for. Truly the one you chose again will be a wealthy person. Rich from your love and caring. Take Care, Crazy – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – How true this is. For All of my life have I focused on my life in a physical sense. What do I look like? What do I do? What things do I have and what do others think of me? Who will share my life and what will she look like? So, for the last few days I have laid here and prayed and thought about this life of mine. Until tonight, I stopped thinking about it and started feeling about it. For it does not matter. All of these physical things do not matter. What does matter is who I am inside and where I am inside. My loneliness has always been of a physical nature. I have longed for someone to love and to love me. And all of this time, I thought that meant to always have someone at my side. Do not get me wrong, I do believe that that is a part of it, but I do not believe that it is the whole. I constantly worry about what I am going to do about my problems, and where I am going to come up with money to handle things and better my life. I worry about what girl is going to fall in love with me and love me. Does that matter? Of course, but not as much as me loving them or feeling love from inside. In every relationship, I have always felt the best when I am giving. I needed them to give back to confirm that I wasn’t being foolish. That my choices of who I gave to were correct. And when they did not, I doubted myself. My mind doubted my heart and soul. I guess what I am saying is that it is not wrong to give of my heart, but maybe foolish to demand it back for verification of my own feelings. What I am feeling now is incredible and I pray that it is the first step of many. I no longer have a great need for my physical being, other than those of pure survival. For it does not matter what I do with it as long as the results are what come from my heart and soul. I am feeling an abundance of self-worth and love. I feel no need for confirmation of who I am. I am inspired and full of strength. And when I begin to doubt myself or feel any less, I shall come back to these words that I lay before me in persistence that I shall return to where I am now. Thank you for letting me share.
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