Lonely Loneliness

no longing is good

Question:

Back pseudo-lurking on the group again. An excess of absence of fellow human confirmation of mine self hath befallen me – the conditions varies, and once in a while there’s just too little and my feelings toward people are amplified out of bounds. Slightly dangerous it is, to show excess of liking or interest, although it shouldn’t in a dream world. I had a dream last night, I was travelling with some people. A girl rested her legs on me, and that was it. I woke with no longing, but a shadow of closeness in the mind. That’s how it’s going by; not bad – I like the summer, being alone is alright as long as I do not long after one of the girls. Quenching this is possible (until the next one). Heh, they are all crazy types – a dangerous attractor. Chloe – I really appreciate your words, and remember them. I’ll think of you at your medical ordeal, it will be alright I’m sure. Love you all, zorn

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -"zorn" (john….@yahoo.com) writes: > Back pseudo-lurking on the group again. An excess of absence of fellow human > confirmation of mine self hath befallen me – the conditions varies, and once > in a while there’s just too little and my feelings toward people are > amplified out of bounds. Slightly dangerous it is, to show excess of liking > or interest, although it shouldn’t in a dream world. > I had a dream last night, I was travelling with some people. A girl rested > her legs on me, and that was it. I woke with no longing, but a shadow of > closeness in the mind. > That’s how it’s going by; not bad – I like the summer, being alone is > alright as long as I do not long after one of the girls. Quenching this is > possible (until the next one). Heh, they are all crazy types – a dangerous > attractor. > Chloe – I really appreciate your words, and remember them. I’ll think of you > at your medical ordeal, it will be alright I’m sure.

Hi, Zorn, Read your message last night after the wedding reception, but was so sleepy, I could not reply yet. This morning, I feel as sleepy still, since I just got up…Hopefully the wake mode will kick in soon… Thanks for your kind words. I am always glad to see you pop in here, if one does not wish another loneliness just to see them post, of course:). Summer’s not here yet, so there still is time ahead for yours to pick up and for thigns to happen to make it more lively, be it in alone time. Like picking a hobby you like and happening to enjoy the moments at it, and the "letting go of expectations" and "appreciating whatever happens your way"  maybe coming easier and easier with less and less of that disapointment feeling that unmet expectatiosn bring… Ah, dreams… Sleep ones or the wide awake ones? I was tryign to stay awake the other night to catch soemthign on tv, and the body was tryign to fall into sleep. At a point I started noticing that I was having dream like images. Just feet walking on a gravel road by which there was tall spring grass and clover, etc, not hay yet… I could manage to make the feet walk in the direction of the grass, thenr realizing I could, I tried some more and saw I could make them walk any direction I wanted, add any image I wanted for a decor…But just the the order of "stay awake!" that I ahd goiven my body all that time was rememebred and pulled me out of there in a zap. ARGH! That was one missed dreaming whatever I wanted opportunity… But it made me wonder about focussing on feet in dreams. I always heard to focus on seign your hand wherever you wanted your dream to "go", did that a few times years ago too, but it actually seemed so so easy with seing feet walking… Shall see if Ic an make that happen again one of these nights. Thing is, me thinks we see feet way less often in dreams than hands…As well, those were not my feet, if they were a woman’s feet and shoes…I never see myself in my dreams. I see  all images as if through my eyes, which puts me in the dreams that way, but I hardly ever ever saw myself in dreams if I ever did at all. So then I have to wait in my dreams for someone to move their hands, i.e. to see some hands in my dreams, or for them to show me their walking feet:), to make it a "dream-at-will". Hmmmpftt…Gotta go wake up somehow….. Maybe another coffee…..But gotta hit the corner store, all out… Hmmmpft…anyone got coffee…? See you around, Zorn! Take care, Chloe   > Love you all, > zorn

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