Lonely Loneliness

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hi julie, being depressed is not the end of the world.  if you don’t help yourself how can anyone help you.  if you want to talk to a friend here i am, you can write to me.  I would love to hear from you and help you in any way that i am able to. chin up dear cicy * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!

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Keeping your spoiler * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *  I don’t even know if I am in the right place. I am not anorexic or bulimic but i definitely have a problem. I know I need help but it is so scary.

If you feel you need help, then you are in the right place. I just want to die right now. I just finished a binge. I haven’t been able to stop binging all week. I feel so fat. I can control the puking though. I hate that. I want to puke. I want to let it all out. But I won’t let myself. I know its wrong.

I am glad that you havent purged. It really is so damaging to the body. I too have gone through weeks where I just binge all the time (mostly at night) but I did purge. It’s really terrible. Please dont do it. Are you seeing a therapist? I think it would help you alot with all your feelings towards food. am poor and so I have crappy insurance, but I need help before I get worse.

There are alot of therpists that charge you on a sliding scale fee…meaning you pay them what you can (if anything). There are also alot of mental health clinics that could help you by setting you up with a psychiatrist so that you can start medications if need be. Also, call your local Social Services office (most of them are in courthouses) and see if you can qualify for welfare or the insurance that they offer (thats what I am on–even though my choices for doctors are limited, and they arent always close by, my insurance has pais ALL my medical bills, which is alot. I also get my meds at no charge). Any words of encouragement or support will do. Please, just so I know I  am not alone.

You arent alone at all! There are many caring wonderful people here. And you can email me anytime you need to talk. Nikki "… lost in the darkness of my own circumstance, criticizing echoes leaving me awake in the night… the barrier and blockades that keep me safe and in control while I pretend that I am okay… "

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realized I was feeling a little triggered as I read, so I quit reading. Anyway, I did want you to know that I care about you.  Please take care of yourself.  Love Kal

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julie, i can’t think of anything so say other than, i hope you can take advantage of services such as shell described, ’cause you deserve to feel better.  also, your high school might have services to offer you.  hope there are better days right ahead for you. tasha

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Julie Many of us be it anorexic, Bulimic, or binge eater feel all the things you are feeling…get a therapist, i have no insurance and am on a "sliding scale" and my appointments are affordable to my therapist "they go by your income". your meds "if needed" can be given to you by your dr with samples. Pfizers and some others will even give you meds when u are in this shape there are forms that your doctor will have to fill out and send a script in with it. with being on zoloft and prilosec and blood pressure meds i know how frustrating it is to have NO insurance plus 2 cans of ensure a day gets expensive… These thoughts you are having are scary and you should seek help asap…and deal with the underlying issues that causes u to binge as the food is a coping mechanism to mask the true feelings or to deal with your feelings and issues, My mail is open to you any time and hope this helped a little… sending support jackie

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julie, whiny? harldy hon.  you are scared and in a lot of pain.  not whiny, you are reaching out, and thats good! you say you puke and binge but you arent bulimic?  i beg to differ you say you want something positive, then you have positives but it doesnt help.  do you know what it is that you DO need that you arent getting? you said you want to get help but have crappy insurance.  that is okay. there are lot of things available that dont cost much at all.  lots of services.  i dotn have any insurance and i am pretty much broke.; i see my therapist on a sliding scale fee based on my income.  some social services have counsling for as little as five dollars. i know here in my city, both catholic charities (you dont have to be catholic) and louisiana family services do.  almost every major city also has a mental health center.  i went today to apply and will get free meds and they also have free groups.  please call around.  anad and aaba have free support groups in many cities.  there are twelve step groups availalbe for free too such as oa. hugs shell

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Dear ASED, Spoiler for lots of stuff * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *       I don’t even know if I am in the right place. I am not anorexic or bulimic but i definitely have a problem. I know I need help but it is so scary. I just want to die right now. I just finished a binge. I haven’t been able to stop binging all week. I feel so fat. I can control the puking though. I hate that. I want to puke. I want to let it all out. But I won’t let myself. I know its wrong. What can I do? I feel so full I think I might explode. I am so depressed. I have been worse though. I guess thats good. But I am nearing my low point. I have to get help soon or I am going to do something crazy. I hate my life. I need something positive. I have something positive. I have so many things positive but it doesn’t help. I want to die. I was thinking about suicide the other day and it scared me because I realized how serious I really was. I am poor and so I have crappy insurance, but I need help before I get worse. I want to cry right now. I have to go but can someone please respond. Any words of encouragement or support will do. Please, just so I know I  am not alone. Sorry for being so whiny. Julie

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear ASED, Spoiler for lots of stuff * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *       I don’t even know if I am in the right place. I am not anorexic or bulimic but i definitely have a problem. I know I need help but it is so scary. I just want to die right now. I just finished a binge. I haven’t been able to stop binging all week. I feel so fat. I can control the puking though. I hate that. I want to puke. I want to let it all out. But I won’t let myself. I know its wrong. What can I do? I feel so full I think I might explode. I am so depressed. I have been worse though. I guess thats good. But I am nearing my low point. I have to get help soon or I am going to do something crazy. I hate my life. I need something positive. I have something positive. I have so many things positive but it doesn’t help. I want to die. I was thinking about suicide the other day and it scared me because I realized how serious I really was. I am poor and so I have crappy insurance, but I need help before I get worse. I want to cry right now. I have to go but can someone please respond. Any words of encouragement or support will do. Please, just so I know I am not alone. Sorry for being so whiny. Julie

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Hi there, Julie, keeping spoiler… / / / / / / / / / / / You are anything but alone.  I know that ED’s are diseases of loneliness because the sufferers are misunderstood by many.  Also, it’s hard to find good professional help to get treated.  (At least, that’s been my experience.)  I’ve been seeing counselors for five years and none of them has helped me.  Is it their fault? Maybe.  Is it my fault?  I am sure partly it is, but…where does that leave me? Searching for a new therapist.  The ones that have been recommended to me do not accept my insurance, so if I go to one of them we’ll have to work out some kind of fee. Is there any way you could get in to see a counselor of some sort?  Many of them will work out a fee that the patient can afford if money is an issue.  You need someone to talk to. Let’s see:  you live with your mom, right?  And she can be pretty mean to you sometimes?  How about if you started with a visit to your family doctor?  That would be a place to begin. As for suicide, well, I truly hope you get help with those feelings as well.  Call a hotline if necessary.  There’s nothing shameful in that;  in fact if you’re really suicidal it’s admirable to reach out for help. You’re welcome to continue posting here.  I’ve thought that you belonged;  in fact I usually read your posts.  And I don’t think you’re whiny. Love, Butterflies In the event of rapture, this account will be unmanned.  Meanwhile… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I don’t even know if I am in the right place. I am not anorexic or bulimic but i definitely have a problem. I know I need help but it is so scary. I just want to die right now. I just finished a binge. I haven’t been able to stop binging all week. I feel so fat. I can control the puking though. I hate that. I want to puke. I want to let it all out. But I won’t let myself. I know its wrong. What can I do? I feel so full I think I might explode. I am so depressed. I have been worse though. I guess thats good. But I am nearing my low point. I have to get help soon or I am going to do something crazy. I hate my life. I need something positive. I have something positive. I have so many things positive but it doesn’t help. I want to die. I was thinking about suicide the other day and it scared me because I realized how serious I really was. I am poor and so I have crappy insurance, but I need help before I get worse. I want to cry right now. I have to go but can someone please respond. Any words of encouragement or support will do. Please, just so I know I  am not alone. Sorry for being so whiny. Julie

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