Lonely Loneliness

Running Up That Hill

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P&M Thank you Ken.  I will redo it next week and send it your way. or it could be I have no idea what I am doing — but dont tell any of my friends… they think I know everything about this blessed box….. — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Ken Jentsch wrote in message

<01becf79$e84ceae0$da662…@KennethW.Jentsch>… :If you could send me the file you are having difficulty with, perhaps I :could find something.  One thing that comes to mind, is that the background :may already be set to maximum.  In that case, the only way you could :increase it, is by decreasing everything else. : :KenJ : : :Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article :<7f7cf$162d3….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… :> :> P&M :> Ken: :> :> Nice to see you to Ken.  Yes, I have never been one not to want to get :> everything done, and in a perfect manner — typical A personality that :has :> been forced to change.  Still hard though. :> I have actually done a rendition of Hotel California that I think :everyone :> will enjoy, but I am still have a problem in figuring out why I cant get :an :> increase in the background sound during mixing. :> Sigh :> I think that is where the name, slave drive came from….. :> — :> ************ :> Barbara :> Tirracamba :> "live and let live" :> ************ :> Ken Jentsch wrote in message

:> <01becea8$f6fc25a0$d0662…@KennethW.Jentsch>… :> :Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to :> :reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara :first. :> :She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with :> :email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some :> :relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. :> :I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I :have :> :to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to :> :read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > :> : :> :KenJ :> : :> : :> :Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article :> :<7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… :> :> :> :> Greetings everyone! :> :> :> :> I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. :> :Hounds :> :> of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a :really :> :> powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make :a :> :> difference.  Strong and empowering. :> :> :> :> I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made :since :> :I :> :> left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only :say :> :> that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the :number :> f :> :> posts they have made. :> :> :> :> Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new :> :people :> :> coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings :to :> :> one and all of you. :> :> :> :> Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always :> :seems :> :> to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am :> :spirit :> :> weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many :sad :> :> things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, :Maurice’s :> :> death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much :stress, :> :> little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief. :A :> :> little peace would be nice. :> :> :> :> 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode nly :> :> because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot :something. :> :As :> :> an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend :the :> :> occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in :the :> :> world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I :calling :> :ASL :> :> strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just :> :trying :> :> to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, :and :> :> somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating :> :> disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people :who :> :> are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out :to :> :> others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets :> :further :> :> away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have :> :seen :> :> recently posted. :> :> :> :> I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be :> :"back :> :> in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone :here, :> :> and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the :list :> f :> :> my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I :> :would :> :> like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the :> :wedding :> :> coming so close, :> :> :> :> It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation :I :> :> must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I :think :> :> they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one :– :> :you :> :> will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of :things :> :I :> :> write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take :such :> :> actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are :> :being :> :> sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have :> :done :> :> to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can :use :> :for :> :> the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. :where :> :> have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel :sorry :> :for :> :> you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you :> :feel :> :> yourself. :> :> :> :> The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting :through :> :> the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day :> :tomorrow :> :> be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To :so :> :> many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you :are :> :> always in my heart. :> :> :> :> — :> :> ************ :> :> Barbara :> :> Tirracamba :> :> "live and let live" :> :> ************ :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :> :>

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If you could send me the file you are having difficulty with, perhaps I could find something.  One thing that comes to mind, is that the background may already be set to maximum.  In that case, the only way you could increase it, is by decreasing everything else. KenJ Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article <7f7cf$162d3….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> P&M > Ken: > Nice to see you to Ken.  Yes, I have never been one not to want to get > everything done, and in a perfect manner — typical A personality that has > been forced to change.  Still hard though. > I have actually done a rendition of Hotel California that I think everyone > will enjoy, but I am still have a problem in figuring out why I cant get an > increase in the background sound during mixing. > Sigh > I think that is where the name, slave drive came from….. > — > ************ > Barbara > Tirracamba > "live and let live" > ************ > Ken Jentsch wrote in message > <01becea8$f6fc25a0$d0662…@KennethW.Jentsch>… > :Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to > :reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara first. > :She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with > :email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some > :relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. > :I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I have > :to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to > :read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > > : > :KenJ > : > : > :Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article > :<7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… > :> > :> Greetings everyone! > :> > :> I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. > :Hounds > :> of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really > :> powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a > :> difference.  Strong and empowering. > :> > :> I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since > :I > :> left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say > :> that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number > f > :> posts they have made. > :> > :> Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new > :people > :> coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to > :> one and all of you. > :> > :> Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always > :seems > :> to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am > :spirit > :> weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad > :> things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s > :> death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, > :> little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief. A > :> little peace would be nice. > :> > :> 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only > :> because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. > :As > :> an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the > :> occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the > :> world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling > :ASL > :> strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just > :trying > :> to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and > :> somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating > :> disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who > :> are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to > :> others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets > :further > :> away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have > :seen > :> recently posted. > :> > :> I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be > :"back > :> in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, > :> and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list > f > :> my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I > :would > :> like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the > :wedding > :> coming so close, > :> > :> It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I > :> must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think > :> they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — > :you > :> will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things > :I > :> write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such > :> actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are > :being > :> sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have > :done > :> to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use > :for > :> the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where > :> have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry > :for > :> you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you > :feel > :> yourself. > :> > :> The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through > :> the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day > :tomorrow > :> be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so > :> many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are > :> always in my heart. > :> > :> — > :> ************ > :> Barbara > :> Tirracamba > :> "live and let live" > :> ************ > :> > :> > :> > :> > :> > :> > :>

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P&M Thank you for the welcome back Lerei Part of the support that I am able to give to people due to my conditions is the ability, when I am able, to send them a special "gift" of a card on the net.  I spend so much time here when I can, that it is one way that I can let someone know that they were on my mind and that I wanted to make it something more than email. The person or persons that have chosen to do this have taken something very kind and given it an ugly twist.  Granted, that some have found them to be a bit on the funny side — I have seen copies of MANY very rude and offending cards that only a person with poor taste would chose to send.  And I guess it is also the fact that other people are being "used" in this.  The people here in this group dont need to be harassed with this kind of thing.  NO ONE has the right to do this to anyone.  If this is someone’s idea of revenge, it is pretty lame to not just come right out on the street and get the thing over with.  In the end they will have burnt so many bridges that they will have no where to turn to anymore.  Revenge is the act of digging two graves instead of the one intended. Think about it.  Dont you think that this kind of "harassment" goes to a new level of the words "low"?  People can be hurt, even with things like this, and none of us like to believe that we are being "used" at the expense of someone else’s idea of a joke.  My personal opinions.  This topic does create alot of turmoil for me.  I just shake my head in disbelief that people would do this kinda of thing. I am sure you would see the wisdom of this kind of activity ceasing — especially if it was harming other people.  Yes I will continue to do what I can but now with a bitter taste in my mouth.  What a sad thing, dont you think? Nonetheless I do appreciate your welcoming me back.  Thank you– ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ le…@my-deja.com wrote in message <7mlooe$u3…@nnrp1.deja.com>…

ear Barbara, : :happy to see you back! I’m sure that your friends will :be understanding about the overload of your email. Feel :free to take your time for mine, I know that your delay :is more than justified. : :You seem to be too concerned for the cards. From the little :I’ve seen (posted here directly or pointers to the site), :they are blatant parodies. It is unlikely that some will :take them as true. Take it from me, there is nothing :to worry. Keep sending your supportive cards every time :you wish so. : :Hugs from :Giggle : :In article <7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>, :  "Barbara" <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote: : :<snip> : : : : :Sent via Deja.com http://www.deja.com/ :Share what you know. Learn what you don’t.

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P&M Hey you little snake in the tall Texas grass. That was a might good squeeze!!!!! Thank you for jumping in on the thread.  I was wondering how you were doing, but you know me,… thinking hard, but usually in bed while I am doing that…. <careful now> Big BC squuueeeezzzeeee right back at ya! — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Texcobra65 wrote in message

<19990715133550.26432.00000…@ng-cp1.aol.com>… :{{{{{{{{Barbara}}}}}}}}}, : :    It’s good to see ya again. I missed you. Glad to hear you are in high :spirits. I’m wishing you all the best. : eace : :Cobra

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P&M Nanny: Always good to see you too. I wanna go to step ten and get there NOW (little pout) Yes, one day at a time, one sun rise and one sunset. When the sun rises here it is setting for someone else. But the promise of tomorrow is always present. Thinking of you — and I am sorry I have been so lame in writing. I will improve with age — or so they say… <evil grin>  probably NOT ! — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Nanny wrote in message <7mki8m$gs…@news.worldonline.nl>…

:Welcome back, Barbara. o one thing at a time, and not too many in a day : :Hugs, Nanny : :– on’t be reckless with other peoples hearts. on’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. : : :Barbara wrote in message <7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>…

:> :>Greetings everyone! :> :>I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds :>of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really :>powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a :>difference.  Strong and empowering. :> :>I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since I :>left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say :>that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number of :>posts they have made. :> :>Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new people :>coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to :>one and all of you. :> :>Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems :>to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit :>weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad :>things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s :>death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, :>little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A :>little peace would be nice. :> :>37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only :>because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. :As :>an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the :>occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the :>world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling ASL :>strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just trying :>to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and :>somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating :>disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who :>are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to :>others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets :further :>away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have seen :>recently posted. :> :>I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be "back :>in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, :>and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list of :>my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I :would :>like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the wedding :>coming so close, :> :>It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I :>must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think :>they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you :>will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I :>write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such :>actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being :>sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done :>to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use :for :>the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where :>have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for :>you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel :>yourself. :> :>The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through :>the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day :tomorrow :>be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so :>many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are :>always in my heart. :> :>– :>************ :>Barbara :>Tirracamba :>"live and let live" :>************ :> :> :> :> :> :> : :

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P&M Frans: Thank you for your warm welcome back.  I gave her a SMOK on your behalf!!! — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Frans wrote in message <7mk65b$6e…@news.worldonline.nl>…

:Barbara wrote> :>Greetings everyone! : : :<snip> : : :>Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always :seems :>to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am :spirit :>weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many :sad :>things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s :>death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, :>little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief. :A :>little peace would be nice. :> : : :So good to read you again in good spirit… Sorry about Mum. Give her a :smok from me, please… : :{{{{{cuddle}}}}} :Frans :

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P&M Eddie: How come you just seem to put the biggest grin on my face, and make me blush?  I am sure by the time I get through the next bunch of days ahead that I will probably have to have a stand in….. <quirky smile> I was wondering if it wouldnt be easier if you and I just didnt take the tow rope up? — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Chief wrote in message <378E2ABB.BE524…@banet.net>…

:Nice to hear from you again Barbara.  Methinks many of us are running up hill, I :think I’m trying to do it backwards.  You relax now ya hear!!!!!!  The next 36 r 37 days will be over before you know it and you will then be a beautiful :bride not just a beautiful person.  I’ll be with you in thought, I’ll try to fly ver as you’re in my prayers. : :Hugs :Eddie (Chief) : :Barbara wrote:

: :> Greetings everyone! :> :> I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds :> of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really :> powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a :> difference.  Strong and empowering. :> :> I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since I :> left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say :> that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number of :> posts they have made. :> :> Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new people :> coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to :> one and all of you. :> :> Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems :> to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit :> weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad :> things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s :> death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, :> little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A :> little peace would be nice. :> :> 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only :> because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. As :> an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the :> occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the :> world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling ASL :> strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just trying :> to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and :> somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating :> disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who :> are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to :> others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets further :> away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have seen :> recently posted. :> :> I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be "back :> in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, :> and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list of :> my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I would :> like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the wedding :> coming so close, :> :> It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I :> must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think :> they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you :> will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I :> write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such :> actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being :> sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done :> to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for :> the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where :> have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for :> you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel :> yourself. :> :> The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through :> the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow :> be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so :> many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are :> always in my heart. :> :> — :> ************ :> Barbara :> Tirracamba :> "live and let live" :> ************ :

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Frans <bow…@club.tip.nl> wrote in article <7mkcsr$c8…@news.worldonline.nl>… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Ken Jentsch heeft geschreven>… > >Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to > >reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara > first. > >She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with > >email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some > >relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. > >I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I > have > >to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to > >read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > > >KenJ > I know, it’s non of my business, but this is sweet. Ken, your age is > showing… )) > Frans

Oh no, not AGAIN.  < smile >  Thank You… I like compliments. KenJ

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Dear Barbara, happy to see you back! I’m sure that your friends will be understanding about the overload of your email. Feel free to take your time for mine, I know that your delay is more than justified. You seem to be too concerned for the cards. From the little I’ve seen (posted here directly or pointers to the site), they are blatant parodies. It is unlikely that some will take them as true. Take it from me, there is nothing to worry. Keep sending your supportive cards every time you wish so. Hugs from Giggle In article <7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>,   "Barbara" <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote: <snip> Sent via Deja.com http://www.deja.com/ Share what you know. Learn what you don’t.

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P&M Ken: Nice to see you to Ken.  Yes, I have never been one not to want to get everything done, and in a perfect manner — typical A personality that has been forced to change.  Still hard though. I have actually done a rendition of Hotel California that I think everyone will enjoy, but I am still have a problem in figuring out why I cant get an increase in the background sound during mixing. Sigh I think that is where the name, slave drive came from….. — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Ken Jentsch wrote in message

<01becea8$f6fc25a0$d0662…@KennethW.Jentsch>… :Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to :reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara first. :She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with :email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some :relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. :I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I have :to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to :read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > : :KenJ : : :Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article :<7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… :> :> Greetings everyone! :> :> I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. :Hounds :> of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really :> powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a :> difference.  Strong and empowering. :> :> I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since :I :> left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say :> that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number f :> posts they have made. :> :> Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new :people :> coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to :> one and all of you. :> :> Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always :seems :> to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am :spirit :> weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad :> things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s :> death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, :> little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A :> little peace would be nice. :> :> 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only :> because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. :As :> an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the :> occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the :> world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling :ASL :> strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just :trying :> to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and :> somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating :> disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who :> are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to :> others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets :further :> away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have :seen :> recently posted. :> :> I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be :"back :> in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, :> and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list f :> my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I :would :> like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the :wedding :> coming so close, :> :> It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I :> must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think :> they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — :you :> will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things :I :> write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such :> actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are :being :> sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have :done :> to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use :for :> the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where :> have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry :for :> you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you :feel :> yourself. :> :> The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through :> the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day :tomorrow :> be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so :> many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are :> always in my heart. :> :> — :> ************ :> Barbara :> Tirracamba :> "live and let live" :> ************ :> :> :> :> :> :> :>

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{{{{{{{{Barbara}}}}}}}}},     It’s good to see ya again. I missed you. Glad to hear you are in high spirits. I’m wishing you all the best. Peace Cobra

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Nice to hear from you again Barbara.  Methinks many of us are running up hill, I think I’m trying to do it backwards.  You relax now ya hear!!!!!!  The next 36 or 37 days will be over before you know it and you will then be a beautiful bride not just a beautiful person.  I’ll be with you in thought, I’ll try to fly over as you’re in my prayers. Hugs Eddie (Chief) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Barbara wrote: > Greetings everyone! > I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds > of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really > powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a > difference.  Strong and empowering. > I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since I > left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say > that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number of > posts they have made. > Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new people > coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to > one and all of you. > Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems > to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit > weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad > things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s > death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, > little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A > little peace would be nice. > 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only > because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something.  As > an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the > occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the > world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling ASL > strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just trying > to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and > somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating > disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who > are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to > others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets further > away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have seen > recently posted. > I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be "back > in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, > and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list of > my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I would > like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the wedding > coming so close, > It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I > must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think > they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you > will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I > write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such > actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being > sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done > to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for > the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where > have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for > you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel > yourself. > The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through > the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow > be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so > many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are > always in my heart. > — > ************ > Barbara > Tirracamba > "live and let live" > ************

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Ken Jentsch heeft geschreven>… >Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to >reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara first. >She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with >email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some >relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. >I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I have >to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to >read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > >KenJ

I know, it’s non of my business, but this is sweet. Ken, your age is showing… )) Frans

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Welcome back, Barbara. Do one thing at a time, and not too many in a day Hugs, Nanny — Don’t be reckless with other peoples hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Barbara wrote in message <7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… >Greetings everyone! >I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds >of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really >powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a >difference.  Strong and empowering. >I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since I >left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say >that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number of >posts they have made. >Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new people >coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to >one and all of you. >Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems >to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit >weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad >things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s >death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, >little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A >little peace would be nice. >37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only >because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. As >an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the >occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the >world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling ASL >strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just trying >to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and >somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating >disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who >are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to >others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets further >away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have seen >recently posted. >I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be "back >in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, >and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list of >my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I would >like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the wedding >coming so close, >It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I >must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think >they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you >will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I >write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such >actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being >sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done >to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for >the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where >have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for >you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel >yourself. >The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through >the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow >be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so >many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are >always in my heart. >– >************ >Barbara >Tirracamba >"live and let live" >************

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Nice to see you back.  I was about to send you an email.  I wish to reiterate something I’ve said before.  Please take care of Barbara first. She is the most important.  THEN you can worry about catching up with email, posting to ASL, and recording songs.  Take care and get some relaxation first before you try to get back into doing too many things. I’ll be looking for you in cyberworld in the near future.  Even if I have to wait until after the wedding.  It’ll be worth the wait to be able to read "stuff" from you again.  Please DO try to get some rest. < smile > KenJ Barbara <bgr…@intouch.bc.ca> wrote in article <7e7cf$131f23….@srv4.reelwest.bc.ca>… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Greetings everyone! > I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds > of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really > powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a > difference.  Strong and empowering. > I have but only glanced at some of the postings that have been made since I > left to deal with the recent death in my family,….. and I can only say > that some people should be able to collect "typing miles" for the number of > posts they have made. > Interesting new faces here.  People from the past re-appearing, new people > coming forward…. yes it has been a very interesting read.  Greetings to > one and all of you. > Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems > to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit > weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad > things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s > death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, > little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief.  A > little peace would be nice. > 37 days left until the wedding.  I am now getting into a panic mode only > because everything is done, and I keep thinking I have forgot something. As > an aside,…. it looks like 3 friends from ASL will be able to attend the > occasion — this makes C and I happy.  Sometimes the nicest things in the > world are the people you meet in the strangest of places.  Am I calling ASL > strange?  <grin>  yeap.  Collectively we are a bunch of people just trying > to get by with whatever we can when things get tough.  Interesting, and > somewhat sad how some people seem to take pleasure out of creating > disruption and developing further contempt,… especially from people who > are here to deal with their loneliness and fears through reaching out to > others on the internet.  Not a perfect solution,… but it even gets further > away from reality and help when they have to wade through what I have seen > recently posted. > I will post a couple of items to CENTRAL and BOX tonight, and will be "back > in business" as soon as I can.  I have a song to record for someone here, > and then another one for someone else special here,… and then the list of > my chores becomes even more endless!  The songs may take longer than I would > like, but I have precious little margin for pushing myself with the wedding > coming so close, > It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I > must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think > they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you > will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I > write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such > actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being > sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done > to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for > the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where > have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for > you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel > yourself. > The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through > the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow > be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so > many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are > always in my heart. > — > ************ > Barbara > Tirracamba > "live and let live" > ************

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Barbara wrote> >Greetings everyone!

<snip> >Yes, I know, my mailbox is very full, and once again,… as it always seems >to be the case, I beg your patience as I respond back to you.  I am spirit >weary and hoping that the sun will shine for me again soon.  So many sad >things in the past week,… including my Mother becoming ill, Maurice’s >death, me denting my brand new truck., all contributing to much stress, >little sleep, and increasing of meds to compensate……  good grief. A >little peace would be nice.

So good to read you again in good spirit… Sorry about Mum. Give her a smok from me, please… {{{{{cuddle}}}}} Frans

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Barbara (bgr…@intouch.bc.ca) wrote:

: : Greetings everyone! : : I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds : of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really : powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a : difference.  Strong and empowering. And side 2, "The Ninth Wave", is about the 1979 Fastnet race disaster. And you’re talking to the Love-Hound who figured that out! See http://gaffa.org/dreaming/tnw_ff10.html Henry B. Messenger             1994 was a long time ago…  http://satanic.org/~cenobite

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Dear Barbara……Welcome back {{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}} You have been missed very much, and it is good to see you back safe and sound…..well, okay….safe.  <grin> While things are rather bleak at the moment, the light of love and caring and support does still shine…and your presence adds some brilliance to that shine.  Please take care…and get yourself plenty of rest !!   Hugs and Smiles, Gina I should care if the wind blows east or west I should fret if the worst looks like the best I should mind if they say it can’t be true I should smile that’s exactly what I do       —Irving Berlin                                                    

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Welcome Home, Barbara ) I’ve missed you!….{hugs} Will write more in another email. – >I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds >of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really >powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a >difference.  Strong and empowering.

<respectfully snipped> Regards, Jenn http://members.aol.com/jeneve23/enter.html  - – - – - I’m so tired of playing, Playing with this bow and arrow, Gonna give my heart away, Leave it to the other girls to play -Portishead

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P&M Hugs right back at you Jennifer.  Good to see you and I look forward to your email when you find the time….. <grimace> It is probably my turn again anyway…. <quirky grin> — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Jenn wrote in message <19990714231728.08100.00000…@ng-ci1.aol.com>…

:Welcome Home, Barbara ) I’ve missed you!….{hugs} Will write more in another :email. :- :>I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds :>of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really :>powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a :>difference.  Strong and empowering. :<respectfully snipped> : : : :Regards, Jenn :http://members.aol.com/jeneve23/enter.html : – - – - – :I’m so tired of playing, laying with this bow and arrow, :Gonna give my heart away, :Leave it to the other girls to play ortishead

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P&M Jae: Yes it is a sad thing indeed. Yes — I will "warn" any of you that I do send cards to — I thought I had work ahead of me before…. Good grief…. — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ LadyJae wrote in message <378D5660.4DB6D…@ccms.net>…

: : :Barbara wrote:

: :> It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I :> must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think :> they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you :> will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I :> write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such :> actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being :> sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done :> to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for :> the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where :> have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for :> you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel :> yourself. :> :> The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through :> the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow :> be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so :> many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are :> always in my heart. :> : :    Good to see you able to be here, darlin’.  <smile>  I always enjoyed your :cards, but if they ever come again and if they are ever a "joke" card, which has :brought me laughter in the past, please warn me first.  I know that takes the :fun out of it for you and I am truly sorry for that……for both of us. warm :hugs, Jae : : :– : :    "The trouble with the rat race is……… :                    That even if you win, you’re still a rat." : :                           Lily Tomlin : :

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P&M Hank: Oh, this was an amazing read Hank!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH. I love to know what inspires people to write music, and you, and the articles following exclain, did an EXCELLENT job. So,…. what EXACTLY is a Love Hound??  Does THIS have anything to do with the track on the album? Thank you Hank.  You are always an amazing voice that comes out of the darkness to make my life a little sweeter. Thanks.  It is good to see you. — ************ Barbara Tirracamba "live and let live" ************ Henry B. Messenger wrote in message <932014031.43…@news.satanic.org>… :Barbara (bgr…@intouch.bc.ca) wrote:

:: :: Greetings everyone! :: :: I happen to be listening to an older album of Kate Bush tonight,…. Hounds :: of Love and the Song Running Up That Hill is playing.  This is a really :: powerful album about being helpless and her conviction to try and make a :: difference.  Strong and empowering. : :And side 2, "The Ninth Wave", is about the 1979 Fastnet race disaster. And :you’re talking to the Love-Hound who figured that out! See :http://gaffa.org/dreaming/tnw_ff10.html : :Henry B. Messenger             1994 was a long time ago… : http://satanic.org/~cenobite

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Barbara wrote: > It is sad that I must do this, but I guess due to the recent situation I > must.  I am known for sending e-cards to those I care about when I think > they really need one.  Please be advised that if I chose to send one — you > will know.  For those I have sent cards to, you know the kinds of things I > write in these cards.  I hope that the person who has chosen to take such > actions against people  – both the receiver and the person they are being > sent on "behalf" of, understands what a horrible thing that they have done > to one of the few kind and gentle things on the net that someone can use for > the purpose of supporting someone when they need it.  Support….. where > have I heard and seen that word before?  Who ever you are, I feel sorry for > you.  Sorry that you must lash out at others because of the unrest you feel > yourself. > The sun will rise tomorrow, and once again we work toward getting through > the day with the least amount of batters and bruises.  May your day tomorrow > be beautiful to you and may it bring a little peace to your heart.  To so > many of you,… you are often just out of reach in my mind, but you are > always in my heart.

    Good to see you able to be here, darlin’.  <smile>  I always enjoyed your cards, but if they ever come again and if they are ever a "joke" card, which has brought me laughter in the past, please warn me first.  I know that takes the fun out of it for you and I am truly sorry for that……for both of us.  warm hugs, Jae —     "The trouble with the rat race is………                     That even if you win, you’re still a rat."                            Lily Tomlin

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(((((Barbara)))))) I don’t know how, with all you have been going through, you can sound so damned GOOD in spirit!

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