To Michelle
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although I do agree, up on the roof is priceless 
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Hello..Michelle..I appreciated ur response back to me..I tried to respond to you but was unable to..sorry 
Maybe u’ll get it this way thankx Michelle
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"Ken" <am…@eoni.com> wrote in message
news:u6joi5dbfks1c3@corp.supernews.com… > Hello..Michelle..I appreciated ur response back to me..I tried to respond to > you but was unable to..sorry Maybe u’ll get it this way > thankx Michelle
Hi Ken, I’ll get back in touch with you at some later date. I’m not feeling too well myself at the moment. I’ll send you those songs one day. Keep the faith. Things can only get better. Michelle
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"soggytrousers" <soggytrous…@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:87wuxnfse6.fsf@liliwhite.open.oasis… > When I was on the road last year I listened mostly to two albums: > Michael W. Smith’s I Will Lead You Home and the tape Michelle sent me > way back when. I asked one hitchhiker if he knew the name of the > japaenese song ("Hey! A makamana…" or whatever) and he said no but > he really liked it. I still listen to it, btw. > Up on the roof….
Hi, I THOUGHT it was you, nice to see you again, I still eat my ice cream out of my Tigger bowl. :) That aside……………… I rate music very highly. I think music is of the spirit and it is some kindred spirit/wavelength that creates empathy between like minded souls. Some of my closest and dearest friends I found purely through one track – Vangelis "Horizon". If I send that track to someone and they say they were in tears or close to tears on hearing it, then I am quite, quite sure that they will understand yearning, passion, belief, hope, emotion, love (or at least the way I see and feel those kind of things)…………and a host of other feelings. I would say, almost without a shadow of doubt that if you don’t like Vangelis "Horizon" then I just could not relate to you. If you can’t "FEEL" the passion I feel, and if I can’t depend on you the way you can depend on me – for eternity. Then what point is there really in love or friendship? Michelle
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Michelle, I just wanted to let you know how much I love your posts. You have made me smile time and time again with your wit and humor. You have also made me feel less alone with some of my symptoms. I also wanted to tell you that you sent me a tape of favorite songs when I posted as Jeni and I listen to it almost everyday and it makes me feel happy. That is a feeling that is hard to come by these days as I am going through a rough spell. I love your jokes and your positivity. You are a very important and vital member of this newsgroup and I just thought you should know. Love, Juniper
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Thank you Juniper. I am so glad that tape helped you and helps you, music helps me a lot too. Sometimes I listen to the same track over and over and over again if it is what I am feeling at the time. I am really, really glad that the music on that tape helps you, because I played it over and over again trying to instil some cheeriness into it and I am sure if you wish something into some music, or into a message, or into a present, then some of that wishing is there. Thanks for your message Juniper, really made my day. Love to you Michelle "Juniper" <juniperpe…@earthlink.net> wrote in message
news:fIH88.19041$Hb6.1600832@newsread1.prod.itd.earthlink.net… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Michelle, > I just wanted to let you know how much I love your posts. You have made me > smile time and time again with your wit and humor. You have also made me > feel less alone with some of my symptoms. I also wanted to tell you that you > sent me a tape of favorite songs when I posted as Jeni and I listen to it > almost everyday and it makes me feel happy. That is a feeling that is hard > to come by these days as I am going through a rough spell. I love your jokes > and your positivity. You are a very important and vital member of this > newsgroup and I just thought you should know. > Love, > Juniper
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Michelle, I can only tell you how the progression went for me. Once they threatened and cussed me for a few months then things began to change. I had reached a point to where their threats of death did not faze me. When they would tell me they were going to kill me, my response was, do it then, I will not do the things to others you are telling me to. One day out of nowhere a voice said, Enough, you have threatened him and badgered him long enough. He will not deny what you want him to, now help him, instruct him, and I shall return to check on his progress, his progress will decide your fate. Who that was Michelle, I do not know. I do know after that some of the voices became friendly with me. Though there were still many cussing and trying to degrade me, these friendly ones seemed to be able to override them. The first lesson was in sounds. They instructed me to concentrate on every sound around me and to sort them out. For instance, cars passing by, the sound of electric motors running, how different motors had different wave and pitch to them, the sound of the animals, thunder, insects, even the sound of fluorescent lights buzzing, or high power electrical lines, white noise on the radio. The reason they taught me this was to show me how different voices used different sounds so I could hear them better. If you have studied the Bible any they sometimes say it as, I heard the Lords voice as the sound of trumpets, or the sound of thunder, or the moo of the cattle. Every way describes a sound that was used to amplify the voice those of the Bible were hearing. I would sit or lay for hours separating the sounds because each sound would connect me with a different group of voices, some friendly, some not. If you understand this post so far, then you can understand how some people think their t.v., toaster, television, radio, car, air conditioner, fan , pet. etc. etc. etc. is speaking to them. So that was my first lesson, identifying sounds around me, separating them, then listening to the different groups of voices talking within them. It took me about six months before I could tune in one group listen for a bit, then go to a new sound and listen to those using it. That was my first lesson from them. All I can do is tell you about it. Making the decision to explore that path is yours. I wish you the best in your decision…Reece
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Tchrre…@webtv.net <tchrreeceNOtcS…@webtv.net.invalid> wrote in message
news:18413-38ED2F63-6195@storefull-227.iap.bryant.webtv.net… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Michelle, I can only tell you how the progression went for me. Once they > threatened and cussed me for a few months then things began to change. I > had reached a point to where their threats of death did not faze me. > When they would tell me they were going to kill me, my response was, do > it then, I will not do the things to others you are telling me to. One > day out of nowhere a voice said, Enough, you have threatened him and > badgered him long enough. He will not deny what you want him to, now > help him, instruct him, and I shall return to check on his progress, his > progress will decide your fate. Who that was Michelle, I do not know. I > do know after that some of the voices became friendly with me. Though > there were still many cussing and trying to degrade me, these friendly > ones seemed to be able to override them. The first lesson was in sounds. > They instructed me to concentrate on every sound around me and to sort > them out. For instance, cars passing by, the sound of electric motors > running, how different motors had different wave and pitch to them, the > sound of the animals, thunder, insects, even the sound of fluorescent > lights buzzing, or high power electrical lines, white noise on the > radio. The reason they taught me this was to show me how different > voices used different sounds so I could hear them better. If you have > studied the Bible any they sometimes say it as, I heard the Lords voice > as the sound of trumpets, or the sound of thunder, or the moo of the > cattle. Every way describes a sound that was used to amplify the voice > those of the Bible were hearing. I would sit or lay for hours separating > the sounds because each sound would connect me with a different group of > voices, some friendly, some not. If you understand this post so far, > then you can understand how some people think their t.v., toaster, > television, radio, car, air conditioner, fan , pet. etc. etc. etc. is > speaking to them. So that was my first lesson, identifying sounds > around me, separating them, then listening to the different groups of > voices talking within them. It took me about six months before I could > tune in one group listen for a bit, then go to a new sound and listen to > those using it. That was my first lesson from them. All I can do is tell > you about it. Making the decision to explore that path is yours. I wish > you the best in your decision…Reece
I have never had the denigratory voices as such – what they seem to do is to say bad things and then they say "HUH you took us seriously? See how insecure you are!!! We are going to continue to say bad things until you don’t believe us". Even now after 123 years of voices one catches me off my guard and I wallow in bad feeling until they snap me out of it. As for hearing voices on sound vibrations – my main one is aeroplanes, particularly jets. Sometimes I can hear voices ROARING out of the skies and seem to *understand* what the sound in the vibration is saying. I am on meds Reece, but not to the extent of drowning out ALL *other world* experiences, just to a level where I am aware of the difference. There are some things I can say to my partner, Richard and I know perfectly well that if I said the same thing to my boss I would get a REALLY peculiar look. It has taken years, but with a minimal amount of meds, I can still remain in touch with *the other side* but to the extent where I can firstly know the difference, and secondly still function on THIS side. I know I might go on about meds Reece, I would dearly like to be able to logically and sensibly go all the way to that other side and find out what is there. The only way to do that would be to give up meds and unfortunately if I did that, I also seem to give up eating and would almost definitely lose my job. To be honest Reece, I don’t know WHAT I think. But I will not on any account agree that all I see, hear and experience is completely internal. There are some things that I am quite sure I just CANNOT have thought of myself. Also is the complete lack of the *feeling* of loneliness since I developed schizophrenia. I have a constant guide in my head and when I am in doubt about something I will say "What do you think?" And I will get long sentences like "I think you should make a cup of tea, sit down and relax, you are having a tough time and in the fullness of eternity it will not make a jot of difference whether you go into the office today. And to be honest Michelle, STUFF ‘em. Remember that time when ……." And I can have long discourses with this voice in my head which I have *trained* myself to hear. I have just recently seen a light at the end of this tunnel I am in Reece. In a job where I am sexually harassed and being driven crazy by the secretary. I hope today will see me in daylight, but keep your fingers crossed for me. If you can manage without meds you are dead lucky. I didn’t realize just how addicted I was until I went three days without and got severe muscular pain and jitters and spasms. I wish you every luck Reece, and I am truly sorry if anything I have said has sounded like I am denigrating you. Michelle
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"The Duck" <squir…@echelon.alias.net> wrote in message
news:2254f932996c74c79164a413d76542d3@anonymous.poster… > Cute. You need to ask yourself "why?" It is actually your own actions which > have prompted these posts.
Yes, most probably. Most people don’t understand my actions. Most people are superficial and trivial and petty like you. Michelle
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"Contact One" <contact….@buggertheplanet.com> wrote in message
news:aF1g8.78052$Ah1.10361471@news2-win.server.ntlworld.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> "The Duck" <squir…@echelon.alias.net> wrote in message > news:2254f932996c74c79164a413d76542d3@anonymous.poster… > > Cute. You need to ask yourself "why?" It is actually your own actions > which > > have prompted these posts. > Yes, most probably. > Most people don’t understand my actions. > Most people are superficial and trivial and petty like you. > Michelle
Well I don’t know who that was, but it certainly wasn’t me!!!! Michelle
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Yeah…the forger. Terrible. I wonder if ever through the rest of his life he will ever tell someone about what he has been doing in a mental health post board as he laughs with glee. If he ever tells just one person……. Damo
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