urge to binge
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* * * * * * * * * * * * * * It’s 3pm and I’ve had a healthy-eating day thus far, but now I find myself thinking I may go out and buy food to binge on. I’m trying to work out why,what’s triggering it? It’s been a good day,nonstressful, no obvious reason to binge. Why am I frightened to allow myself to get better? I know it’s because I won’t have anything to hide behind anymore, I’ll have to think about the real issues of loneliness and selfesteem. But I feel like I can’t tackle those issues until I feel better about myself , and I can’t feel better about myself while I’m still bingeing, and letting go of the e-d is too scary because then I’ll have to tackle the issues How to get out of this circle??? At the moment I can only break the circle for 2 or 3 days at most ,and then it closes again, sometimes for weeks. I know there’s no magic solution to this, but writing about it is progress for me, at least I’m not shutting it away completely. Ber
Response:
hi sweetie, mid afternoon seems to be a killer for me too. i had to establish a routine , for instance, meet a friend at the gym each afternoon where i am accountable to keep myself out of the food. also, things like journaling, listening to music on a walkman outside (no food around), or praying. good luck! shell
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Why am I frightened to allow myself to get better? I know it’s because I won’t have anything to hide behind anymore, I’ll have to think about the real issues of loneliness and selfesteem. But I feel like I can’t tackle those issues until I feel better about myself , and I can’t feel better about myself while I’m still bingeing, and letting go of the e-d is too scary because then I’ll have to tackle the issues How to get out of this circle???
One thing that has helped me is to try and look at what’s directly in front of me to work on, and not try to tackle the BIG PICTURE all at once. Too overwhelming, leading to a "Why try?" defeatist attitude. If all I can do today is eat normal meals (and keep them down), if that’s the best I can do, then that has to be 100% for me for today. There will come a time when I’m ready to tackle whatever is next on the list. But you never have to worry about doing everything, all at once. Baby steps. Betsy
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Today I feel stronger – new month ,new start and all that. luck to you
ber, everyday , every hour is a new start. good for you. dont give up , that is most important. shell
Response:
hi shell – thanks for your suggestions,I *know* what to do, but sometimes doing it is another matter,you know? Yesterday I made it until 6pm before giving in, so I’m trying to look at it as an improvement on the previous day rather than as a failure. Today I feel stronger – new month ,new start and all that. luck to you Ber
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